Some change is good, like an adventure. I like that.
I feel like in the past I was the master of change, remaking myself to live in a different place, or redefining of myself.
As life goes on, I. am getting more and more scruffed up. At least for me, life has been brutal at times. I imagine that is the same for others, but ya know with social media these days, you only see a perky little picture that someone paints of their lives. People hide what they are challenged with, and I do keep that in mind that all of us are struggling to some point.
Loss, health challenges, even growing older and being perceived by society in a certain manner can take one aback. Due to my Aspie wiring, I have had lots of experience in that being perceived and the ageism I have noticed well it in itself is not enough to floor me, especially since I am active and able to enjoy recreational activities.
Loss is the biggest issue for me. How to remake my life without important souls continuing on this journey with me. That makeover I used to do so spontaneously, and with those beings by my side, well it now has to happen in a more, how would you say, lonely yah, solo, yup manner.
So I will do it, but it really feels like it's not just for joy this time, or out of the fact I have evolved, but rather for my survival.
I don't want to be pessimistic so I am pushing back several emotions.
I guess change falls into the category of:
1)Fun
2)It's time, that other way no longer fits.
or
3)Survival
Sometimes it's a combination of all three eh? For yes, life can be brutal and pushback is needed.
I provided empowerment service to Senior Citizens for many years. I was able to motivate them to improve outlook and life, in 8 out of 10. I became friends with many of them, and knew of the reasons for their strengths and weaknesses.
Up till now, I have been rather good at self encouragement.
I have the gut feeling this is an all or none wall I am hitting here, and I am going to have to do something rather extreme to regain my emotional footing.
A cousin who became nervous in the US, left for a Greek Isle. I won't be a naysayer to her, but my goodness yeah that is one extreme if not for the PM. 2.5 air hitting 100 dangerous levels there. Another person went to another country that is burdened with terrorist issues and again bad air. I already know from my stay in Mexico as an expat, a new place doesn't fix things, and sometimes presents new challenges. For Mexico it was healthcare was lacking (for not only me but my dogs) and safety for my dogs presented. It was an expat area that was rather safe, but ah that only means the danger isn't visible in the normal ways.
So for now, after this 'loss' we will travel to live in another state. It has potential... shrugs... and great trails to bike and hike on.
How have others dealt with life change, loss of those dear to you, and feeling displaced and/or alone.
I am sure that I can do this remake, but I kinda realize it won't fix all (emotionally) and won't be a lighthearted remake, like in the past.
This happens as we get older. The challenges are upped over time. I knew this.
I feel like in the past I was the master of change, remaking myself to live in a different place, or redefining of myself.
As life goes on, I. am getting more and more scruffed up. At least for me, life has been brutal at times. I imagine that is the same for others, but ya know with social media these days, you only see a perky little picture that someone paints of their lives. People hide what they are challenged with, and I do keep that in mind that all of us are struggling to some point.
Loss, health challenges, even growing older and being perceived by society in a certain manner can take one aback. Due to my Aspie wiring, I have had lots of experience in that being perceived and the ageism I have noticed well it in itself is not enough to floor me, especially since I am active and able to enjoy recreational activities.
Loss is the biggest issue for me. How to remake my life without important souls continuing on this journey with me. That makeover I used to do so spontaneously, and with those beings by my side, well it now has to happen in a more, how would you say, lonely yah, solo, yup manner.
So I will do it, but it really feels like it's not just for joy this time, or out of the fact I have evolved, but rather for my survival.
I don't want to be pessimistic so I am pushing back several emotions.
I guess change falls into the category of:
1)Fun
2)It's time, that other way no longer fits.
or
3)Survival
Sometimes it's a combination of all three eh? For yes, life can be brutal and pushback is needed.
I provided empowerment service to Senior Citizens for many years. I was able to motivate them to improve outlook and life, in 8 out of 10. I became friends with many of them, and knew of the reasons for their strengths and weaknesses.
Up till now, I have been rather good at self encouragement.
I have the gut feeling this is an all or none wall I am hitting here, and I am going to have to do something rather extreme to regain my emotional footing.
A cousin who became nervous in the US, left for a Greek Isle. I won't be a naysayer to her, but my goodness yeah that is one extreme if not for the PM. 2.5 air hitting 100 dangerous levels there. Another person went to another country that is burdened with terrorist issues and again bad air. I already know from my stay in Mexico as an expat, a new place doesn't fix things, and sometimes presents new challenges. For Mexico it was healthcare was lacking (for not only me but my dogs) and safety for my dogs presented. It was an expat area that was rather safe, but ah that only means the danger isn't visible in the normal ways.
So for now, after this 'loss' we will travel to live in another state. It has potential... shrugs... and great trails to bike and hike on.
How have others dealt with life change, loss of those dear to you, and feeling displaced and/or alone.
I am sure that I can do this remake, but I kinda realize it won't fix all (emotionally) and won't be a lighthearted remake, like in the past.
This happens as we get older. The challenges are upped over time. I knew this.
