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Misery

Misery

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  • Misery
    Still keep getting distracted by freaking Youtube so easily. Where did the last 3 hours go? I think I need to get a lot more strict with my own internet use overall, not just Youtube. Seems one leads to the other pretty easily.
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    Misery
    Misery
    @Tired Yeah, my feed is pretty much the stuff you mentioned there, with some added chess content. Gameplay videos being what I watch most. But I'll check something out, and then "oh hey that looks interesting" and then again, and again... often with "oh it's just 3 minutes, I can check out just one more" happening.
    Misery
    Misery
    And then of course from there it just repeats until a bunch of time is lost. Usually I'm not aware of how much time is going by until after I snap out of it.
    Tired
    Tired
    oh i see, but if you enjoy the videos you are watching, i wouldnt see it as a lost time. you gained some knowledge and maybe had fun :)
    Misery
    I dont know how anyone tolerates wearing glasses all the time. I only use mine when absolutely necessary, and every now and then I get so irritated at them that I just launch them at the floor. They smear up if you exist in the same room as them too hard and nothing ACTUALLY cleans them properly. Must... resist... urge to stomp...
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    Outdated
    If you're using toilet paper or facial tissues then yes, that would make the problem much worse - the perfumes they spray on the paper are oils.
    Tired
    Tired
    The toilet paper i use has no perfume. Same you first world people live on another level :D
    Lou Laurinen
    Lou Laurinen
    Scented toilet paper would give me an allergic reaction in a place where I really don't think anyone wants one, lol
    Misery
    bah I hate it when I have to wear these stupid glasses, my eyelashes are so freaking long and constantly brush against the lenses. Talk about distracting.
    FayetheADHDsquirrel
    FayetheADHDsquirrel
    Are your eye lashes naturally that long or •••?
    Misery
    Misery
    Yeah, they're just very long by default. It can be pretty annoying. Not just the glasses, it happens with my VR headset as well.
    Misery
    Back now, a bit early. Well, most of the holiday stuff is done for me, fortunately. Kept decently active over the past couple of weeks. More energy lately.
    Misery
    I think I gotta step away from here for awhile. Spending too much time checking and clicking, and that is NOT helping me break bad habits. I'm getting better, much better, at resisting the urge to scroll (Youtube) and stupid things like that, but it's not enough yet. Gotta push harder. Have a good holiday, everyone!
    Misery
    Assembling a thing, lots of acrylic pieces, and I wonder: What moron had the idea of putting... ahem... """""protective""""" plastic on every piece? Once I'm done getting any given thing's plastic off, it looks like it had a fight with a particularly insane cat. The cat both won and lost at the same time. That doesnt make sense, but neither does that plastic.
    Judge
    Judge
    I'm equally experiencing needless anxiety over re-sealable plastic wrapping of cheese products, where suddenly most of them are terribly difficult to pull apart and reuse without damaging them and leaving cheese to quickly become stale. o_O
    Misery
    I dont know how anyone does digital drawing without going utterly mad. "Gonna give it another try" I said. 20 minutes later: "this thing cost like $1000. I think it's worth about $10, the stupid heap". Never should have bought that stupid iPad. May or may not have thrown it at the floor again. Pencils & paper all the way, thanks.
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    Misery
    Misery
    And lastly... it's an Apple device. So it's extremely limited in terms of what's even available for it. Apple wants it on their store or you cant use it at all. I end up barely using the thing, because it doesnt DO anything.
    Outdated
    Outdated
    Is it still working after hitting floors and walls a few times? Sell it on Ebay "slightly used". Not for the money but for peace of mind. :)
    Misery
    Misery
    It's basically in an indestructible case. Not because of throwing it, but because of how I'm a klutz. My big Android phone (which has no real problems to complain about) fell on the jagged slate floor the other day after I tripped over the dog. It's in a similar case, so instead of exploding, it just bounced. Cant imagine using these without a case.
    Misery
    Chronic pain gets real old, real fast. That being said... even with the pain I feel a lot better when I'm constantly *doing* things instead of watching stupid nonsense on Youtube. It's getting easier to resist that.
    FayetheADHDsquirrel
    FayetheADHDsquirrel
    I'm sorry to hear that you are in pain. I hope you get to feeling better.
    Misery
    Misery
    Sadly, "better" usually doesnt really go along with chronic pain. There's low pain (the default), high pain, and "having trouble moving". Something always hurts at least somewhat.
    Outdated
    Outdated
    You do eventually get used to living with it. I'm in the same boat, got hit by a car at age 14, permanent spinal damage.
    Misery
    20251114_025015.webp

    Robot thing #2 in the middle of being built. When finished it will either A: lay dominoes, or B: explode. Also how does anyone frequently work with really tiny screws without totally losing their mind? This time I'm not doing it all in one night.
    Misery
    I'm so freaking tired of accounts for everything, passwords, confirmation numbers, stupid debit cards, stupid special wacky numbers on those cards, confirmation emails that arent received properly, having to change a password because it had no hieroglyphs in it... uuuuugh. I miss just using cash for things and having exactly one account (AOL). I totally didnt just launch a card at the monitor.
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    l start mumbling when l have to get a code, to do anything, like just why, why?
    Misery
    Screenshot 2025-09-22 181031.webp


    A fractal object being worked on. I'm not entirely sure where I'm going with this one or how it's going to be used. This editor is specifically designed to make the 3D ones. Dealing with the 2D ones involves a variety of other programs.
    Misery
    Diamond and Stars[1J].webp


    This was complicated to make. I could animate this, but... maybe not right now. I think that's enough mouse use for today.
    Misery
    Not so fun moment: Just finish showering, step out of stall, grab towel from the wall rack, feel something bounce off my shoulder... what? Look down, white/gray ball thing wildly rolling back and forth on the floor, NOPE nope nope nope...
    Misery
    MazeSphere.webp


    Got my hands on some new bizarre (and expensive) rendering software. I'm not even going to try to explain what in the world is going on here. It's not a fractal, but it's not a polygonal object either. Powerful stuff though. I can do a lot with this. Though it takes even longer to render than my fractals do. I need more power.
    Misery
    4DBigGearDeepRoomCL.webp


    Wow that took a long time to render.
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    Misery
    Misery
    Took a few hours, this was a tough one. And then like 45 minutes for the final render. As for the island, I havent been there in a couple of years. We sold the place down there actually, because of too many hurricane threats. That was barely before the island did get smashed up a bit.
    Misery
    Misery
    Though the real reason I havent been there in awhile is because of an odd fear of airports and such. Not sure where that came from. I feel like I can do it now though, so we might do a trip down there at a rental soon like how we used to.
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    The area l lived in was hit pretty hard. Bradenton Beach area looks new again, you can see the beach now as so many trees and plants are gone from the main drive out to longboat key.
    Misery
    4DTriViolet.webp


    This one took a while to do. Might not look like it but this is a 3D object. PC darn near exploded during that render. Then a little bit of Photoshop magic, and there ya go.
    Misery
    Step 1: Wake up middle of the night with nose itch. Step 2: frustration at this. Step 3: flail in direction of tissue box and angrily grab tissue. Step 4: blow really freaking hard. Step 5: liquid all over face. Step 6: uh oh. Later in the day step 7 will be: wash bedsheets and pillowcase. Also, freaking HYDRATE.
    Judge
    Judge
    Just as an experiment, you might purchase a box of adhesive nasal strips. See if they keep your nasal passages relatively open while you sleep. For me and my allergies it was quite a revelation that something so simple helps.
    Misery
    ArmoredBox2MultipliedDeepChasmGreenShineBrot~.webp


    I just discovered I can turn my previous art things into color mappings with these. Also this is the resolution the previous one was supposed to be in.
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