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Tony Ramirez

Tony Ramirez

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Overmedicated Single Aspie RSD NEET 48 From Brooklyn, NY
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  • Tony Ramirez
    I life with never get better. I am going to give you soon.
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    Tony Ramirez
    Tony Ramirez
    I been going out less for my mental health.
    T
    thejuice
    Good idea if you feel emotionally volatile! Sit and chill to some lofi
    Tony Ramirez
    Tony Ramirez
    I am. I will go to a movie then go straight home. Go to a social event place where I know I shouldn't be ignored, there is like two maybe three left then again head straight home. Otherwise, I will not try any new places or go to past ones that triggered me to insanity or even just go out to touch grass to be around a hole smoker and death stare's.
    Tony Ramirez
    I can never work or get a degree because of my meltdowns of hearing the f word.
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    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    When my daughter was in 2nd grade, l explained the swear words to her, told her not to use them. She then felt educated when little boys were swearing and she stayed quiet in class. The words had no effect on her.
    Tony Ramirez
    Tony Ramirez
    I'm the only one left on this planet of humans who this bothers. I have not met a human being who this affects in person or online.
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    Sorry Tony, it must be a trigger word.
    Tony Ramirez
    I'm having public meltdowns even in social groups like outdoor events meeting like game nights when people use the f word too much like today I thought I was going to be arrested.
    tree
    tree
    Have you considered trying inpatient therapy?
    The level of support would be more constant.
    Tony Ramirez
    I'm losing interest in gardening volunteering work because no one gives a damn in giving me a chance in giving me any volunteer work. They just ghost me or pretend I have never been there when I show up.
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    Tony Ramirez
    Tony Ramirez
    I'm looking asking people and hearing crickets back.
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    It took me a half year to get a job when l moved to FL. I had been a housewife for many years. Finally, l was given a chance. A lot of jobs, you start at the bottom, if they like your work ethic, they train you for better positions.
    tree
    tree
    @Tony Ramirez
    How do you ask, and who are you asking?
    Are there tasks that you could offer to do, that don't require someone's approval?
    Tony Ramirez
    I have friends and have lengthy conversations with women IRL.
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    Very exciting to read. Glad you moved on from your thoughts holding you back. It's difficult to do, but you will never go back.:)
    Tony Ramirez
    If I ever offended LGBT people here in the past, I apologize. Actually meeting and befriended them IRL changed my views. I am so sorry.
    Tony Ramirez
    Humans need to go extinct.
    Judge
    Judge
    Patience, Tony.


    CAP811: "The Matador....the Matador....Me! Me."
    Tony Ramirez
    Tony Ramirez
    Love the original Twilight Zone from the late 50s early 60s. Lots of episodes about humanity.
    Judge
    Judge
    The Twilight Zone was my first introduction to the real meaning of the word "irony".
    Tony Ramirez
    I have no friends. Never had them. Can't make friends because of my autism.
    FayetheADHDsquirrel
    FayetheADHDsquirrel
    I'm sorry. There are actually a lot of us on here who don't have friends. That is why we try to encourage you to find hobbies you can enjoy alone or with a pet. Then if you later find a friend, that will be an extra blessing.
    FayetheADHDsquirrel
    FayetheADHDsquirrel
    I thought you had found some friends recently though.
    Tony Ramirez
    Tony Ramirez
    Can't do hobbies alone when I see friend groups and couples hanging out everywhere. Then my parents put me down.

    Those friends backstabber me.
    Tony Ramirez
    My life sucks. I can't improve it. I tried.
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    Can you try to be happy with what you do have? When l get down about something, then l try to be grateful for what l do have. 800 people are on the list for affordable housing in my city, and that was just one apartment complex. When l left Los Angeles, l was shocked at the amount of those just surviving on the sidewalk, or under the freeway underpass, or one guy who slept in his truck on my block.
    Tony Ramirez
    It's going to be approaching 6 1/2 years now, I wasted my life putting myself out there.

    Still no real friends just acquaintances, no girlfriend, hell still not even a platonic female friend, uneducated, unemployed and still living with my parents.
    Tony Ramirez
    I hate the word friend. Don't put boy or girl next to it. I'll piss in your face.
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    thejuice
    Have you ever tried writing your feelings of frustration out but not clicking send? @Tony Ramirez
    Tony Ramirez
    Tony Ramirez
    I will record them to my self
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    thejuice
    Like dictation? that's a fantastic idea. If you want, you might consider deleting it once youve listened back. Validate your frustration in the moment, and then delete it. It means you won't drown yourself in a powerful wash of inescapable negativity, which is what happens with public forum outbursts here. Youre plunging downwards, but you need not tie weights to your ankles.
    Tony Ramirez
    I hate my life. I just thought compared and realized that I actually have no friends. Never did.
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    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    I only have one very true friend. It's very hard to find true friends because there are so many parameters and check boxes that you need to meet. So friendship is actually very difficult. You sorta have to have similar core values, similar interests, and trust and respect. Friendship is actual very difficult. l can say once you have a true friend, you just know it.
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    And it helps if your friend is nerodiverse, l hope l spelled that right. l have zero NT friends. Even my best bosses were ND. My daughter is ND, my partner is probably ND. Maybe you are trying to be friends with NT and not ND.
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    You need to look for the shy types, the types that don't hang in big groups. We are hard to meet because we are introverted.
    Tony Ramirez
    I finally uninstalled the damn meetup app. I already purged before half of the groups that were triggering hot messes but to purge all, only one would actually remain. I will stick with the website. No more 50 billion notifications daily.
    Tony Ramirez
    I want to end my life again.
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    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    That's rude. Maybe they are gaslighting you there. Like they band up together and act rude. Sometimes cliques are involved in illegal things, like drug dealing, that's a clique of people. There is a lot bullying type of behavior these days among young adults, l say find a new place, don't take this personally. You got this, l believe in you Tony.
    Tony Ramirez
    Tony Ramirez
    Thanks. Or I will head home then come back, even if it means just staying home an hour or two so I can return to the 40th street church later. I do have a reduce fair OMNY card that my parents pay for.
    Tony Ramirez
    Tony Ramirez
    Most likely my RSD messing with my head now that I thought it over I actually never said anything to the young woman.
    Tony Ramirez
    Small and big cafés and parks need to burn to the ground. Forever bodega and local neighbor volunteer gardens parks.
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    Sorry to read something triggered you today. People can be jerks, l witness this in my own town. l try to keep an open mind, but it seems people are turning into jerks everywhere .
    Tony Ramirez
    Tony Ramirez
    If you ever come to NYC avoid Bryant Park alone, especially if you are a guy which you are not. They treat solo, single people like crap. But if you are with someone, especially with the opposite sex or your girlfriend's then you are noticed and welcomed.
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    That's definitely weird. They treat older women horrible in FL. You are better off being a single older guy here. l actually met my half sister in New York. They invited me to move there, but NY was to overwhelming for me.
    Tony Ramirez
    I hate happy people especially couples
    Rocco
    Rocco
    That is a strong feeling. Are you confusing jealousy/envy for hatred? What did these random couples do to inspire such strong emotions in you? Is it simply their existence? Is it their happiness with each other?
    Tony Ramirez
    Tony Ramirez
    Blame Byrant Park and Roots Cafe. They were stopping grounds to my other small church and my garden volunteer group both great but the stopping grounds are miserable. But otherwise I have to wander the streets for hours.
    Tony Ramirez
    Tony Ramirez
    I need a new hangout places that are not triggering.
    Tony Ramirez
    My meltdowns are coming back.
    S
    Steelbookcollector217
    well unfortuneately if this keeps happening, don't be surprised if you end up in legal trouble or get sent to the asylum or mental institution
    Tony Ramirez
    Tony Ramirez
    What part of no one cares don't you get
    S
    Steelbookcollector217
    let me guess, you think its impossible for you to get arrested because you are invisible and nobody cares about you?
    Tony Ramirez
    I actually hate social group walks. Hearing about people jobs, relationship and great college life's. I now realize it's a major trigger and like solo walking all along.
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    You are identifying your triggers. l have some triggers that really set me back. The aftermath is improving for me. Great news Tony.
    S
    Steelbookcollector217
    well its good you are ID'ing those trigger for your nervous/mental breakdowns
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