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Yeshuasdaughter

Yeshuasdaughter

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You know, that one lady we met that one time.
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  • Yeshuasdaughter
    I want to delete dozens of my profile posts. They make me sad to read and remember, and so I delete them often. But at the same time, if everything was sterile and chipper, it would feel sort of sickening. Like a lie. Or dismissing real events. So I don't know what to delete and what to keep. All I know is that my profile is jumbled up with one season following another, laden with happiness and tears. Too many tears.
    Yeshuasdaughter
    Share love openly. Don't ever hide it. If you have someone to forgive, do it now. If there's a bridge, mend it. If there's a need. Be the answer.
    Yeshuasdaughter
    I'm weak, dizzy, out of breath today. But I am very very thankful for my daughter and my caregiver for helping me. And for loving friends and family.
    Yeshuasdaughter
    I am very sick. It's been a couple weeks at least since I've spent much time out of bed. I've been so dizzy and weak. And at the same time, everyone I love dearly and rely upon are having big problems. I've been lonely for much of it. I can barely get up to go to the bathroom and maybe eat dinner in my recliner. Please pray.
    Yeshuasdaughter
    I get so nervous around big groups of people. I'm terribly shy. Everyone was asking me questions. I had been so lonely and missed everyone so much. And so I forced myself to be social, trying to think of what to say, and made a fool of myself, as usual.
    FayetheADHDsquirrel
    FayetheADHDsquirrel
    You probably did better than you think you did. It seems like a lot of us have a tendency to be overly critical of ourselves.
    Yeshuasdaughter
    My heart is shattered, but I'm stuffing it way inside so that I can be good for others. On the inside I'm crying like a child on the playground.
    Xinyta
    Xinyta
    It is not a sin to greave. But it is a sin to linger. Do not let your heart wither for the sake of others. Giving kindness you feel you are not getting, is a good gesture. But if you give all kindness away. You leave none for yourself.
    Yeshuasdaughter
    I'm up in the middle of the night with someone in a lot of pain. OTCs aren't touching it. Might have to deep dive in my boxes of herbs to make a potent infusion for sleep and pain. Poor dear.
    Yeshuasdaughter
    My life is a little bit messed up right now. I'm trying to fix things. But I'm so sensitive right now. Physically and emotionally. Memories and unfortunate recent private events in my life.
    Yeshuasdaughter
    All I have thought about, all day, since the moment I first knew I was pregnant, has been my daughter. Everything in life is for and about her. And to have her gone, it is the greatest heartbreak. I miss her and worry about her more than words can say. It is too quiet here. Too empty. In place of her joyous playful kindness, a void of shadows. I cry every day for her.
    Crossbreed
    Crossbreed
    We felt that way after our youngest left. You just have to let the grief play out. There is no substitute.
    On the plus side, we are meeting a new granddaughter this weekend. :)
    (That probably would not have happened if we kept our son at home...)
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