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Tony Ramirez

Tony Ramirez

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Deconstructing my Faith to Rediscover Inner Peace 48 From Brooklyn, NY
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  • Tony Ramirez
    Living at home with my family now that events are being cancelled because people are traveling and it's not even June yet is now at the point of going to drive me to a mental institution.
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    Misty Avich
    I'm not going anywhere this summer either. We can't afford to. I have one week off work in June, and we're just staying home and my aunt is coming to stay for a couple of days, which I'm looking forward to. But that's it.
    Tony Ramirez
    Tony Ramirez
    No wonder why I always looked forward to the fall even school coming back at least people were back and not in timbuktule land while I was in my same rut places every year doing nothing with my miserable family even to this day.
    Tony Ramirez
    While literally everyone I know is traveling this summer too parts unknown. I am stuck in Brooklyn hanging out at a coffee shop and doing yoga all summer.
    Tony Ramirez
    Why do I keep thinking that women hate me when there are encounters knowing it's not true?
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    Tony Ramirez
    Tony Ramirez
    Both but it use to be the opposite but deep in my mind I always wanted it I just did not know how to socialize with them growing up with all male cousins and a type 3 ASD sister.
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    Misty Avich
    Maybe you have a feminine side to you and as an adult you just prefer to be in female company. That's cool. I like men with a feminine side.
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    Maybe you are sensitive, and you don't have to act macho around woman. Maybe you find woman easier to relate to. My boyfriend is that way. He likes female bosses. My mom absolutely adores him. He isn't your traditional type A macho male. You will do great with a female boss if you ever want to work.
    Tony Ramirez
    I already Catastrophising when I got to my new church thinking they were closed pacing for 5 minutes until someone came out. Now I am breaking bread with the pastor and new friends.
    Tony Ramirez
    I hope I die in my sleep tonight.
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    Yeshuasdaughter
    Yeshuasdaughter
    Are you okay? I don't know you, but I want you to know someone cares about your existence. I don't want you to die.
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    Oh boy, l can't tell you how many times l have had that thought.
    Tony Ramirez
    Tony Ramirez
    I'm going to a new church tonight. I also had a good private yoga class with my teacher who cares for me. I feel good.
    Tony Ramirez
    It's going to take me a long time before I ever trust a single woman again who clams wants to be "just friends".
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    thejuice
    It's hard not being accepted
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    Misty Avich
    I'm sorry women treat you like this. *Hugs*
    Tony Ramirez
    I love this community.
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    tree
    Meanwhile, you're so disappointed that you fantasize the entire world and all its inhabitants being destroyed.

    The way you express your positive and negative feelings is pretty extreme.
    Things seem to be all or nothing with you.
    Tony Ramirez
    This planet needs to be blown up with everyone on it.
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    Sometimes it's an extremely cruel place.
    Xinyta
    Xinyta
    So. What you are asking, because of the immediate people in your life, is for people across the word, animals, and plant life to all die. All because you dislike your situation.

    Taking the nuclear route has never helped anyone. Only more pain comes from this thought process. Namely for the person enacting it.
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    thejuice
    You make a strong case :D
    Tony Ramirez
    I hope finally purging toxic places I been going to for several years and the terrible people will improve my life.
    Tony Ramirez
    Small talk in a group ain't that bad which I did with a group of people I meet for the first time. As long as you got topics that actually interest you to talk about. Just stim and rest during your private time or with the people your close with who know of your ASD to avoid burnout.
    Tony Ramirez
    I am at my friends cafe away from home enjoying a hot chocolate and a lemon cake. I also bought my Macbook. I now know I can come here in the afternoons to escape home.
    Metalhead
    I think it is time you stopped being so hard on yourself. I literally am jealous of your successful weight loss. Dude, that is awesome and I could never fault anybody who succeeds at that.
    Tony Ramirez
    If I want to end my life to get rid of this curse then why do I have to go through so much drama of people telling me that's life's worth living when it's really not.
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    Tony Ramirez
    Tony Ramirez
    Lost 90 pounds mostly doing yoga. Teachers and friends are very proud and supportive.
    Metalhead
    Metalhead
    Be proud of that, that is not a minor feat at all. That means you have strength and discipline as a human being.
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    thejuice
    Hang in there Tony you'll feel life is worthwhile again it usually comes.in cycles and my best times usually come after a period of depression!
    Tony Ramirez
    Actually my gpa in college was not 1.0 that was a D but was actually a 0.0 which is a F. Pathetic autistic failure I am.
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    Metalhead
    Metalhead
    You are smarter than what you are giving yourself credit for. Depression makes many people get 0 GPAs when their actual intelligence is much higher, I can tell by reading your posts that you are no idiot. Stop treating yourself as such.
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    thejuice
    I got an ungraded once.. not unexpected as usually I'd get sent out of class but still.. actually I got two ungraded in serious exams
    Metalhead
    Metalhead
    And @thejuice, you are no bloody moron either.
    Tony Ramirez
    Doing yoga classes is actually calming me down more than hanging out with the church groups and peers which has been more stressful.
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    Alright, that's a big break thru for you. Sometimes church groups are precarious, because you can fall out of favor depending on a multitude of things.
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    thejuice
    They seem nicer
    Tony Ramirez
    I'm on a verge of an nervous breakdown of I have to interact with anymore normal people instead of actual type 1 ASD in real life.
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