I saw everyone at thanksgiving. My siblings. The first time since my uncles funeral in April. Which was when I lost my speech, started talking gibberish for two month and started using a walker from the brain injury. My siblings have no asked nor have the seen me sinc ethen. My husband feels like he is drounding and expecting thwm to stwp up but, sadly thwy wont. When things get tough my family runs. Especially from mw. I am the one who reaches out keeps in contact keeps the connection alive. I stopped trying as much when I started doing therapy because I didnt want to give all of the energy. I am burning myself out in the relationshils. Plus right now I have no energy. Friends have stwpped up. Not my bestfriend when I got really bad she stopped talking to me. She even forgot my birthday. It is crazy how people consistantly fail me. How I am always the one to give all the enwrgy and all the friendahip and they give nothing. My last bestfriend ai gave her some feedback and she started dating my brither and dropped me as a friend. And started using him. I have a bad habit of pucking users just like my family. They dont do that to everyone in the family. Though I am the youngest. I did move out when I was 14 thoufh. I just felt more live and care from my cousins than my siblings it was sad. I think I have out grown my family after do Some really intense therapy and better caring for myself. I have friends I have adopted as family only very small amount but honestly I dont need anyone. It is better alone than having the energy sucked out ir not being cared for and having someone there. My mom hasnt wven stepped up which is really disheartening. I do with my dad wasnt dead he would be here for me. I know he would. So that sucks. So anyways thanksgiving broke me and made me realize all the other times my family hasnt been there abuse, rehab, court case when they just dropped me off as a minor at the court house and didnt take me in.... thwy showed up more for the grandkids and other siblings said "that didnt happen" or called me a "faker" or a "slut" for thw abuse. Today was a hard day to process. I hope someone who reads this knows you are not alone you are strong and you got this. Need a friend pm me. Families suck and you out grow thwm so find and adopt a new one 
