I Hate Apergers

Nothing about having this curse is great, I wouldnt even have my own children just so they cant contract and suffer from this. Its cool that there are others that accept it and think positively of it. I dont know maybe mine my symptoms arnt tolarable as others would have. When you cant get your mind to shutup ever because of obsessive thoughts, sensory overload and stress/ anxiety evey second, oh and music also, I wonder why I havnt crased my head through a mirror yet. I invision this all the time. Multitaking could never save me and my life is far fwhere It should be. Ive delt with this as long as I can remember, now Im getting worse. Reality is literally weird to me as if im in a dream. Meds barley work and now im trying supplements which arnt helping my insomnia or relaxation. Still looking for natural stuff though. But , sigh Im giving up on life, fed up with it. I feel like im dying on the inside and outside. Its not fair for anyone this young to not be able to enjoy life and feel like an 80yr old.