Getting a diagnosis

Keep us posted on how it goes. I think you will find that even though there doesn't seem to be much you can do about it, it may bring a sense of closure. At least it will give you and your therapists some kind of idea what is going on. I tried going for therapy a couple of times and quit because I didn't think the therapist understood where I was coming from. That was before I heard about Aspergers. Someday I would like to get formally diagnosed, but at this point in my life it is not financially feasible and may even do more harm than good. Even without a formal diagnosis, I have learned so much about myself now that I think if I were to try therapy again I would seek out someone with experience counseling people on the spectrum.

If you are seriously considering not having kids, then don't have them or put yourself in a situation where having one might happen. I made a choice years ago not to have kids and I have not regretted it, even though in the world's eyes I have "missed out" on one of life's greatest experiences by choosing abstinence. It takes a lot of courage and maturity to know that you are not parent material. Wish more people realized that about themselves. And I totally understand what you mean about not being born. There are many days I feel like I am one of God's mistakes.

Thank you so much for taking the time to answer this blog post, Spinning Compass! I mean it. I'm not the type of person who easily connects with people. Your reply do, however, show me that I'm not this only individual of a species. I feel you truly understood what I was thinking when I wrote the post. The funny thing is: as I received the notification that you had replied on my blog, I thought you would have made a harsh judgment on me for my not being born remark. I've read quite a few of you blog entries and my instant guess was that you had given me a religious lecture for what I had written. It's pretty clear I shouldn't be so judgmental and defensive. Thanks again.
Best regards.

You are welcome. I understand where you are coming from with the religious lecture remark. Trust me, that sort of thing annoys me just as much as it does you. That's one of the reasons I started writing this blog series. When people respond to someone's opening their heart with a religious lecture, it means that they aren't listening and one of the reasons they aren't listening is that they have been told that they should look for precisely such situations as an opportunity to impose their beliefs on the other person. One of my biggest beefs with Christianity as a missionary religion is that it divides the world into us (the saved) and them (the unsaved), and if you are in the latter category, you basically have nothing to contribute. You exist only as a passive receptable for their witnessing. Then they wonder why few people really want to listen to what they have to say.