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Just found your blog: Yes that thing with the loss of your Dad, sems familiar to me also,
When my late husband was suddenly removed from my life. It took about 14-15 years to get the idea,He was physically gone. Used to sleep on the couch all those years , Cause I did not want to miss him when he came through the front door . Cause in the past sometimes he had to work through the night on extra shifts . And when He was caused to pass on, I never got a chance to say Good bye to him. And the circumstances around his passing were un resolved. eventually , years later . He seemed to come in a dream? to me ,and leaning over the couch in the dark.He told me . It was okay . Somehow, I knew what he meant. He was not a wordy person. He was a Redhead, and periodically it seems when I am relaxed and being outdoor , out of nowhere ,I will notice a Red male Robin bird. With suddenly appear in the area I am in and it will,light on on a branch for awhile. Am seemingly not be in a rush to leave the area,I am in . He had bern the first yo notice thrm many years psst. When we were there finally,in our new family home living theretogether. Like to think that, although I cannot see him. I think he is still around me. Maybe you might have a similiar experience.