No one ever helps no one can see how much difficulty i am having. I cannot do this anymore. I can't live with the fear of not being able to find another job. I thought i could make it without working but i developed ocd and life was hell with it. I need something to distract me but this job is too much i cannot deal anymore. But what will happen if i cannot find another job, what if ocd comes back?
And my employer was so kind to me, if i disappoint him and make things hard for him i am scared of being a terrible person. He was kind enough to tolerate my mistakes, he never got angry and shouted but if i continue this way i might lose my whole career. I need to make a decision but i am too stressed.
I don't want to be ungrateful but i am too scared and anxious. I am like a child who cannot recognize warning signs and no one helps me. I am alone and so afraid.
And my employer was so kind to me, if i disappoint him and make things hard for him i am scared of being a terrible person. He was kind enough to tolerate my mistakes, he never got angry and shouted but if i continue this way i might lose my whole career. I need to make a decision but i am too stressed.
I don't want to be ungrateful but i am too scared and anxious. I am like a child who cannot recognize warning signs and no one helps me. I am alone and so afraid.
