These are some thoughts I have from time to time; so I've collected them here for no particular reason other than it interested me to do so.
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I reckon I am schizophrenic, but I think we are okay with that, me and my Aspergical self.
Do people assume I am annoyed with them just because I am not talking to them, I really could go about not talking to them all day or anyone else for that matter.
I think it is kind of sad that people feel they have to fill every available space with sounds; silence is supposed to be golden so maybe just nobody likes gold anymore.
I have so much to say but no way to say it that anybody understands, so I am silent while actually saying a lot of nothing to everybody:
How are you, nice weather, how about that local sports team, that girl is sexy, I?m hungry, what time is it, how's your family. Blah, Blah, Blah?
These hot days turn into cold nights and in both scenarios I am always alone.
The temperature makes my bones expand and contract but my brain doesn?t, both hurt.
People are so selfish; but I don?t think I am like them so I want them to be more like me instead.
Then I think this makes me selfish too, which means I AM like them and the circle closes on itself.
It seems that the wrong people love me and the right people don?t know me and I think I am neither.
So much rage, everything is angry. Sad is angry, so is distracted, confused is more so.
Being angry makes me sad, but sad is angry. So I can?t win.
Coffee makes my pee smell nice, which doesn?t annoy me, although it does confuse me?
Whose idea was it that I should have Aspergers anyway? Its just way too easy to call the bad stuff as it always stands out like a sore thumb.
Why can?t they diagnose anything good for me...
?Sir, it appears you have Aspergers, but, you would also make a terrific librarian, ophthalmologist? or speed bump in the main street?
I had a drop of sweat tickle me so much that I punched it, of course, it didn?t feel a thing, but I did.
Why do people always tell people they want to kill themselves? I want to kill myself too but I don?t tell people, I mean?
I would tell you if I wanted you to talk me out of it, which would mean I wasn?t serious to begin with.
But I don?t tell you, which means I am serious, and that is scary? so why am I still here.
I think my other personality is an idiot, I know I am a Gemini.
Stupid people make me want to punch my brain, but then, everybody is stupid in my opinion.
People get stupider right before my eyes the more I try to explain myself to them, maybe I am stupid for trying.
I really try hard to be happy so I don?t have to be angry but right now, the things that usually make me happy make me sad, which makes me angry.
I want to be touched and hugged, just not by the people that want to touch and hug me.
So when they do do that, I feel I have to climb out of my skin like a cicada?
I then fold it up and wait patiently until the germs congregate at the besmirched area.
Then I want to show that person what they made me feel like.
But they only hug me and rub my arm, and then say its okay... because they obviously can?t understand plain English!
I usually think I like being angry but I can?t smash everything, so maybe I don?t like being angry at all.
Why do you meet the right people at the wrong times in your life?
Why do the bad people stay with you always or revisit often, while the good ones go away or simply, die.
I often will punish myself for not being? fill in the blank!
I think humanity is cruel...
Bringing creatures into a world among nothing they are ever going to be familiar with and then they expect them to be healthy, happy and grow old.
Am I talking about children with Aspergers or animals at the zoo, both are raised in cages and both are tortured daily in their own skins simply by advent of being different.
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I think I thought I would think about those things I had thought, then think about the thoughts that those thoughts made me think, I think ; ]
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I reckon I am schizophrenic, but I think we are okay with that, me and my Aspergical self.
Do people assume I am annoyed with them just because I am not talking to them, I really could go about not talking to them all day or anyone else for that matter.
I think it is kind of sad that people feel they have to fill every available space with sounds; silence is supposed to be golden so maybe just nobody likes gold anymore.
I have so much to say but no way to say it that anybody understands, so I am silent while actually saying a lot of nothing to everybody:
How are you, nice weather, how about that local sports team, that girl is sexy, I?m hungry, what time is it, how's your family. Blah, Blah, Blah?
These hot days turn into cold nights and in both scenarios I am always alone.
The temperature makes my bones expand and contract but my brain doesn?t, both hurt.
People are so selfish; but I don?t think I am like them so I want them to be more like me instead.
Then I think this makes me selfish too, which means I AM like them and the circle closes on itself.
It seems that the wrong people love me and the right people don?t know me and I think I am neither.
So much rage, everything is angry. Sad is angry, so is distracted, confused is more so.
Being angry makes me sad, but sad is angry. So I can?t win.
Coffee makes my pee smell nice, which doesn?t annoy me, although it does confuse me?
Whose idea was it that I should have Aspergers anyway? Its just way too easy to call the bad stuff as it always stands out like a sore thumb.
Why can?t they diagnose anything good for me...
?Sir, it appears you have Aspergers, but, you would also make a terrific librarian, ophthalmologist? or speed bump in the main street?
I had a drop of sweat tickle me so much that I punched it, of course, it didn?t feel a thing, but I did.
Why do people always tell people they want to kill themselves? I want to kill myself too but I don?t tell people, I mean?
I would tell you if I wanted you to talk me out of it, which would mean I wasn?t serious to begin with.
But I don?t tell you, which means I am serious, and that is scary? so why am I still here.
I think my other personality is an idiot, I know I am a Gemini.
Stupid people make me want to punch my brain, but then, everybody is stupid in my opinion.
People get stupider right before my eyes the more I try to explain myself to them, maybe I am stupid for trying.
I really try hard to be happy so I don?t have to be angry but right now, the things that usually make me happy make me sad, which makes me angry.
I want to be touched and hugged, just not by the people that want to touch and hug me.
So when they do do that, I feel I have to climb out of my skin like a cicada?
I then fold it up and wait patiently until the germs congregate at the besmirched area.
Then I want to show that person what they made me feel like.
But they only hug me and rub my arm, and then say its okay... because they obviously can?t understand plain English!
I usually think I like being angry but I can?t smash everything, so maybe I don?t like being angry at all.
Why do you meet the right people at the wrong times in your life?
Why do the bad people stay with you always or revisit often, while the good ones go away or simply, die.
I often will punish myself for not being? fill in the blank!
I think humanity is cruel...
Bringing creatures into a world among nothing they are ever going to be familiar with and then they expect them to be healthy, happy and grow old.
Am I talking about children with Aspergers or animals at the zoo, both are raised in cages and both are tortured daily in their own skins simply by advent of being different.
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I think I thought I would think about those things I had thought, then think about the thoughts that those thoughts made me think, I think ; ]
