So pain is no where near where it was.
But it's different, and kind of bad.
I'm pretty sure that is a combination of not really sleeping a whole lot/well and being so completely stressed out and anxious that the tension in my upper back is just totally ****ing everything.
So it's really attacking my shoulders and neck- running all the way up into my jaw and sometimes the sides of my face. I'm gtting headaches a lot.
The shoulder stuff is sometimes pulling on muscles weird in my arms- I guess? So my elbows and wrists and the insides of my hands are hurting.
My lower back hurts. Quite a bit. I was dying my hair and it hurt my back pretty much the whole time. Which doesn't exactly make sense but that seems to be the current theme- general ridiculous and not making sense so why start questioning it now?
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I was going to write more.
I kept deleting.
All I can think is like...
OK, so I have been in outpatient hospitalization before for three weeks?
I could go through a list of all this ridiculous crap.
I've definitely had a 9/10 pain where I had an infected tooth nerve completely exposed and was kind of hysterical and almost blind with pain and...
What I'm dealing with in terms of the OCD? It's right up there.
I'm not blind and hysterical, but I feel like I'm struggling more. There is nothing I can do about it right now, in the immediate I feel like. I have an appointment in 7 days and this all sucks.
But it's different, and kind of bad.
I'm pretty sure that is a combination of not really sleeping a whole lot/well and being so completely stressed out and anxious that the tension in my upper back is just totally ****ing everything.
So it's really attacking my shoulders and neck- running all the way up into my jaw and sometimes the sides of my face. I'm gtting headaches a lot.
The shoulder stuff is sometimes pulling on muscles weird in my arms- I guess? So my elbows and wrists and the insides of my hands are hurting.
My lower back hurts. Quite a bit. I was dying my hair and it hurt my back pretty much the whole time. Which doesn't exactly make sense but that seems to be the current theme- general ridiculous and not making sense so why start questioning it now?
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I was going to write more.
I kept deleting.
All I can think is like...
OK, so I have been in outpatient hospitalization before for three weeks?
I could go through a list of all this ridiculous crap.
I've definitely had a 9/10 pain where I had an infected tooth nerve completely exposed and was kind of hysterical and almost blind with pain and...
What I'm dealing with in terms of the OCD? It's right up there.
I'm not blind and hysterical, but I feel like I'm struggling more. There is nothing I can do about it right now, in the immediate I feel like. I have an appointment in 7 days and this all sucks.
