BefuddledClarity
ASD 1 Parent of ASD 2 Child
❝ You ever impulsively post something really dumb, and regret it a minute later? ❞
Yes, I have a lot in the past. I would do it often and feel embarrassed each time, because that particular post would be coming from VERY strong emotions at the time. Plus, I can be indecisive. I think I still write messages impulsively, but a little bit less than before. Mostly just fixing spelling/grammar or formatting issues. Sometimes, I take a few days or so to respond. I'm obsessed sometimes with writing the "correct" and "balanced" message, where it isn't overwhelmingly long or underwhelmingly short. Not too emotional, nor too devoid of emotions. I'm trying to learn that it's OK to just be me and write what I feel like without having to overly worry, but it's difficult sometimes. I was taught not to have certain feelings/emotions displayed outwardly and to ALWAYS be perfect or else I would be physically and/or verbally punished. Right now, I am overthinking my response and made a lot of fixes while typing this, and moved sentences around to make sure it makes sense...I have a hard time really articulating my thoughts and either over explain or don't do a well job of explaining and ramble too much or too little...
Yes, I have a lot in the past. I would do it often and feel embarrassed each time, because that particular post would be coming from VERY strong emotions at the time. Plus, I can be indecisive. I think I still write messages impulsively, but a little bit less than before. Mostly just fixing spelling/grammar or formatting issues. Sometimes, I take a few days or so to respond. I'm obsessed sometimes with writing the "correct" and "balanced" message, where it isn't overwhelmingly long or underwhelmingly short. Not too emotional, nor too devoid of emotions. I'm trying to learn that it's OK to just be me and write what I feel like without having to overly worry, but it's difficult sometimes. I was taught not to have certain feelings/emotions displayed outwardly and to ALWAYS be perfect or else I would be physically and/or verbally punished. Right now, I am overthinking my response and made a lot of fixes while typing this, and moved sentences around to make sure it makes sense...I have a hard time really articulating my thoughts and either over explain or don't do a well job of explaining and ramble too much or too little...
