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I think it's because many of us were treated so badly, and didn't understand why, so in order to have a less stressed out life, we adapted.
I'm glad you feel confident enough to be yourself, but there are those of us in less sympathetic situations that have had to do the opposite. I know that if that kind of confidence had come to me, I wouldn't have suffered such anxiety, both as a child and to a lesser extent now.
It is disturbing, both to read and to live through.
A lot of this rings true for me. I was a very introverted person who adopted the ways of successful individuals in order to do business with the world. The end result was me becoming what I describe as an introverted extrovert.i was told during my diagnosis that mimicking the mannerisms of people that we identity as socially capable was a very, very common trait of asperger's. Thanks for your posts Sass you summed up what i was wanting to say.
i was told during my diagnosis that mimicking the mannerisms of people that we identity as socially capable was a very, very common trait of asperger's. Thanks for your posts Sass you summed up what i was wanting to say.
Maybe it is like using ingredients in a recipe. You don't have to use all the lemon juice or sugar in the cupboard each time you open the door. It depends on what you are making how much you dispense.
To me the ideas of 'masks' & 'facades' are loathsome.
Fakeness.
I have no objection to not displaying the entirety of
one's personality, depending on the situation, but at
no time do I prefer to call that 'wearing a mask.'
Maybe it is like using ingredients in a recipe.
You don't have to use all the lemon juice or sugar
in the cupboard each time you open the door.
It depends on what you are making
how much you dispense.
I suspect for most of us "the recipe" simply calls for as much as it takes to avoid getting our ass kicked. It was never a choice for me. Mostly a tool for social survival - not subterfuge. Even then, there was never any guarantee of success.
i have been thinking about this and wonder, just how much of a person is not a mask
socially speaking? i mean so much of our time is spent socially on projection, counter
projection,transference counter transference, cotransference and all these subconscious
transactions that may very well trick us into believing that we have a personality when in
fact we are just the flickering manifestation of all those little subconscious processes ping
ponging away in the background. i have been searching for an authentic self for over a
decade, pulling away layer after layer of identity trying to find the core me and am still
searchin.
Why do you find something so fundamentally human as masks and facades so loathsome
if you don't mind asking?
Why do you not capitalize the first person pronoun?
I don't like 'masks' and 'facades' because they aren't
real. I think I dislike the concept for the same reason
some people prefer it. Hiding. Fakeness. I don't like
those things.
When I was a child, I used to dream that there
were groups of people/toys/animals and they were
all identical looking. But only one of them was the
real one.
I chose to retreat and retreat some more. Every one of my drawings and paintings is IMO a mask which says [to certain people] catch me if you can.I suspect for most of us "the recipe" simply calls for as much as it takes to avoid getting our ass kicked. It was never a choice for me. Mostly a tool for social survival - not subterfuge. Even then, there was never any guarantee of success.
To call self-expression a 'mask' tinges
it with a flavor I can't enjoy. Makes it
seem like an excrescence, rather than
a behavior.
To me the ideas of 'masks' & 'facades' are loathsome.
Fakeness.
Before I learned about AS, I thought everyone was hiding behind masks all the time. I thought that was what you did to show someone you cared--you put on the right behavior for the situation to communicate the right message. I wasn't purposely deceiving people. I just thought everyone played these games in order to be interactive.
Then I decided to try to be more authentic. I truly thought people would be pleased on some level--I thought they would be glad to learn that they didn't have to pretend with me anymore, and that I wouldn't pretend with them. I would simply try to be myself, and they could each be themselves, and no more games.
Do we, as a people, have the ability to stand up for are selves?
The problem is I don't really know who I am.
As for letting my true side out, I do like saying puntastic jokes, and is part of the real me, but even this is a facade to hide the inner despair and turmoil that no one would want to see.