My inner self is very self-conscious about not being seen as "weird," and I suffer from (learned paranoia) from childhood which makes me hypervigilante about not wanted to be "talked about" poorly or seen as incompetent. I worry of other's perception of me and that they think the same about me as *I* do.
I had to ask my counselor if I only "thought" I was outgoing and extroverted, because I question the difference between how I see myself, and how others see me.
There's a great deal of insecurity, and being raised with paranoid parents (including a conspiracy theorist), I tend to "doubt" what I hear unless I can prove it to myself.
The rest of me deals with OCD--obsessive thoughts, lots of irrational phobias, PTSD, and other issues which I believe to be part of my personality, but they "add" to my issue about jurisprudence, rules, regulations, etc. In fact, I've written Standard Operating Procedure Manuals and then enforced them.
Rules are important for everyone else (but I know how to break them), which leaves me feeling conflicted a lot of times.
People tell me I'm exactly the same way online than off, which I take as a compliment. I enjoy meeting and talking to people, but I question whether or not I am "relationship material" at this stage of my life.