Hey,
I know you guys must get those "do I have aspergers?" threads all the time, but as someone who is currently undiagnosed, I just want to share some of my behaviour with you guys and maybe get some feedback. I'll try to keep it as short as possible, and I can't be bothered too much with grammar at the moment, so please excuse. (I'm 19 by the way)
Firstly, I was diagnosed with depression last year, and was given drugs (Lexapro) which I didn't end up taking. I now suspect Asperger's as the root cause of it, and my parents may as well.
1) I have no friends, and am sometimes confused on what to do (e.g. I'm not sure if I'm supposed to say "hello" if I'm not looked or smiled at). I also often can't be bothered talking to people.
2) I believe I stim (hand-flapping when excited; happens daily)
3) I spend up to hours daily walking in circles, listening to music, fantasising and occasionally flapping.
4) Have had a few "obsessions" in life (Would write out the football fixture and act out every single match my team played weekly as a 6-7 year old, Memorising and reciting periodic table for family as a 7 year old, Carrying around books and dictionaries on "how to speak German" as a 10-11 year old, constantly asking a friend and family to name a year so I could recall which film won Best Picture for that particular year as a 15-16 year old)
5) My whole life I have been referred to as a "walking dictionary"
6) I had an enormous vocabulary and atypical language at a young age (When I was 7, upon seeing my mum cook a sauce I didn't recognise, I asked "what is that sticky substance?".
7) I hated the feeling of jeans and the smell of cars as a child (I don't think I have any major sensory issues anymore, but I believe I might be a bit sensitive to light and sound)
8) As a 16-18 year old, I had an intense fascination with cinema. So much so, that I found it so much more interesting than most other things, even people.
but,
I have a problem with eye contact. The problem is, I stare TOO much. I'm not entirely sure when I'm supposed to look away when someone is talking. Interestingly, I saw an class interview of me as a 6 year old, and I didn't look at the camera once, despite it being right in front of me. I remember my teacher afterwards telling me that "I must look at the camera". Not sure if I had a lack of eye contact back then.
I'v recently developed a sense of fashion (I heard that individuals on the spectrum aren't interested in, or can't comprehend, fashion?)
I can lie. (Apparently, people on the spectrum are very honest?)
I'll start with that. I'd love any comments you guys give me. Thank you so much, even if you just read all of that.
I know you guys must get those "do I have aspergers?" threads all the time, but as someone who is currently undiagnosed, I just want to share some of my behaviour with you guys and maybe get some feedback. I'll try to keep it as short as possible, and I can't be bothered too much with grammar at the moment, so please excuse. (I'm 19 by the way)
Firstly, I was diagnosed with depression last year, and was given drugs (Lexapro) which I didn't end up taking. I now suspect Asperger's as the root cause of it, and my parents may as well.
1) I have no friends, and am sometimes confused on what to do (e.g. I'm not sure if I'm supposed to say "hello" if I'm not looked or smiled at). I also often can't be bothered talking to people.
2) I believe I stim (hand-flapping when excited; happens daily)
3) I spend up to hours daily walking in circles, listening to music, fantasising and occasionally flapping.
4) Have had a few "obsessions" in life (Would write out the football fixture and act out every single match my team played weekly as a 6-7 year old, Memorising and reciting periodic table for family as a 7 year old, Carrying around books and dictionaries on "how to speak German" as a 10-11 year old, constantly asking a friend and family to name a year so I could recall which film won Best Picture for that particular year as a 15-16 year old)
5) My whole life I have been referred to as a "walking dictionary"
6) I had an enormous vocabulary and atypical language at a young age (When I was 7, upon seeing my mum cook a sauce I didn't recognise, I asked "what is that sticky substance?".
7) I hated the feeling of jeans and the smell of cars as a child (I don't think I have any major sensory issues anymore, but I believe I might be a bit sensitive to light and sound)
8) As a 16-18 year old, I had an intense fascination with cinema. So much so, that I found it so much more interesting than most other things, even people.
but,
I have a problem with eye contact. The problem is, I stare TOO much. I'm not entirely sure when I'm supposed to look away when someone is talking. Interestingly, I saw an class interview of me as a 6 year old, and I didn't look at the camera once, despite it being right in front of me. I remember my teacher afterwards telling me that "I must look at the camera". Not sure if I had a lack of eye contact back then.
I'v recently developed a sense of fashion (I heard that individuals on the spectrum aren't interested in, or can't comprehend, fashion?)
I can lie. (Apparently, people on the spectrum are very honest?)
I'll start with that. I'd love any comments you guys give me. Thank you so much, even if you just read all of that.