Hello, Lovelies!
I have learned some very valuable lessons in the past month. Some were somewhat hard to handle, but not too bad. I found out I had ASD back in November '17 and I was a wreck. Fast forward until now and I am doing way better.
I have trouble going out in public, now. I have always had social anxiety and I have always felt unsure of myself. Well, experiences within the past five years have really shaken my trust in other people. I will elaborate. Some of this will seen fairly banal or obvious to some of you but keep in mind that I lived at home until age 25 and at that point I got tossed out on the streets to fend for myself. Completely homeless with only a car. I am thankful that I did have a vehicle and I am aware that I was extremely lucky to have one. I don't have a car now.
1. I learned that people don't make logical, well thought out decisions for themselves. 99.99% of people have a herd mentality. If that guy said It, I better believe him cause he is muh friend. He would never lie cause he is a nice goy.
To put it another way, people give credit to what other people say. I don't, personally, I have always thought people were stupid, but people actually don't question what some random person will tell them.
I was sickened when I found this out. If a homeless crackhead from the street said you were a communist, mass murdering anarchist, people would believe that. because that crackhead doesn't have any reason to lie to them.( I have seen it happen!) You could try to explain until you passed out from lack of oxygen that you were not a communist baby eater but you wouldn't convince this person even using the best empirical evidence.
2. I learned that people will use you for your resources. The part that stings the most about this is, I once let a guy sleep on my floor because he was facing homelessness. He turned around and stole my money, and treated me like crap afterward. He wasn't grateful for the things I did for him.
Now, I am always careful with who I deal with. I never give people handouts(I never did) and I mainly stick to myself and I don't trust anyone. I now pay attention to what other people say and how they dress and act.
Conclusion: I am constantly stressed out and there is always a knot in my gut and my head feels like It is going to explode. I am very aware of the hypocrisies in society and the lies.
I have learned some very valuable lessons in the past month. Some were somewhat hard to handle, but not too bad. I found out I had ASD back in November '17 and I was a wreck. Fast forward until now and I am doing way better.
I have trouble going out in public, now. I have always had social anxiety and I have always felt unsure of myself. Well, experiences within the past five years have really shaken my trust in other people. I will elaborate. Some of this will seen fairly banal or obvious to some of you but keep in mind that I lived at home until age 25 and at that point I got tossed out on the streets to fend for myself. Completely homeless with only a car. I am thankful that I did have a vehicle and I am aware that I was extremely lucky to have one. I don't have a car now.
1. I learned that people don't make logical, well thought out decisions for themselves. 99.99% of people have a herd mentality. If that guy said It, I better believe him cause he is muh friend. He would never lie cause he is a nice goy.
To put it another way, people give credit to what other people say. I don't, personally, I have always thought people were stupid, but people actually don't question what some random person will tell them.
I was sickened when I found this out. If a homeless crackhead from the street said you were a communist, mass murdering anarchist, people would believe that. because that crackhead doesn't have any reason to lie to them.( I have seen it happen!) You could try to explain until you passed out from lack of oxygen that you were not a communist baby eater but you wouldn't convince this person even using the best empirical evidence.
2. I learned that people will use you for your resources. The part that stings the most about this is, I once let a guy sleep on my floor because he was facing homelessness. He turned around and stole my money, and treated me like crap afterward. He wasn't grateful for the things I did for him.
Now, I am always careful with who I deal with. I never give people handouts(I never did) and I mainly stick to myself and I don't trust anyone. I now pay attention to what other people say and how they dress and act.
Conclusion: I am constantly stressed out and there is always a knot in my gut and my head feels like It is going to explode. I am very aware of the hypocrisies in society and the lies.
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