Annaa
Well-Known Member
I wrote a little something about silence I just wanted to share it somewhere.
Silence, 1000 thoughts in my mins but not one leaves my mouth, I used to love talking a lot, I never ran out of words only of energy until I realised nobody cares so I shut up and let them talk. "People like when you listen" I once read in an article about how to make people like you.
So I did I listened so that they would like me, I knew once I showed who I really was they would loose interest so when they suddenly told me to talk I was silent l.
1000 thoughts, should I tell them about my day? Maybe about my stupid interests? Or maybe about that thing I noticed that nobody else ever seemed to notice? Or maybe about the world's problems and solutions? Maybe they wanna know about my fascination with the psychology behind plastic surgery or about my theories? I stop and I stare at them so many thoughts, but it was just such a simple question. I want to start talking they asked after all, so maybe they actually care? My mouth opens but all I can think about are the annoyed micro expressions and disinterested tones, twitches in their mouth corners. They don't care they're just asking ti be polite. Another 1000 thoughts, should I pretend I have a crush for some fun girl talk? Or should I gossip about someone "weird" just to drown in my guilt later? "Uhm...I have nothing to say" I answered just like always I immediately notice the boredom in their eyes.
Silence.
I can't win.
Silence, 1000 thoughts in my mins but not one leaves my mouth, I used to love talking a lot, I never ran out of words only of energy until I realised nobody cares so I shut up and let them talk. "People like when you listen" I once read in an article about how to make people like you.
So I did I listened so that they would like me, I knew once I showed who I really was they would loose interest so when they suddenly told me to talk I was silent l.
1000 thoughts, should I tell them about my day? Maybe about my stupid interests? Or maybe about that thing I noticed that nobody else ever seemed to notice? Or maybe about the world's problems and solutions? Maybe they wanna know about my fascination with the psychology behind plastic surgery or about my theories? I stop and I stare at them so many thoughts, but it was just such a simple question. I want to start talking they asked after all, so maybe they actually care? My mouth opens but all I can think about are the annoyed micro expressions and disinterested tones, twitches in their mouth corners. They don't care they're just asking ti be polite. Another 1000 thoughts, should I pretend I have a crush for some fun girl talk? Or should I gossip about someone "weird" just to drown in my guilt later? "Uhm...I have nothing to say" I answered just like always I immediately notice the boredom in their eyes.
Silence.
I can't win.
