Sea wall; coping with drastic changes and disruptions

[Rocco]

Hello folks. It has been a while since I was active here. Been doing pretty well despite a difficult year. I did some positive affirmations today on the way to work, compelling myself to have a great day and be strong. My day was less than great with a barrage of drama as if it were a summary of some soap opera or sad country song.

7:10 AM
Upset the boss, misread a situation and really got him upset.

7:50 AM
Oops, got him mad again.

12:15 PM
My closest friend stopped communication Sunday, and I discovered today that he died Sunday and his funeral was held an hour before I called today. I cried for 20 minutes quietly in my car.

1:30? PM
Wife signed divorce papers and my divorce is final today. 15 years gone like a morning fog burned off by an angry sun.

3:21 PM heavy traffic jam

6 PM
Found out a third party error may cost me a few thousand dollars.

so far I am holding up well. Maybe it’s shock. Mayhap it be personal development is paying off? I don’t know but I feel like a Sea Wall taking the abuse of an angry storm and waves keep drowning half of me, and the other half endures. Not sure how long I can do this.

 

[Nitro]

Often attributed to Winston Churchill, but can't be confirmed:
If you’re going through hell, keep going.

Sounds like you are in a very dark place my friend.
We are here for you, as always.

 

[Mia]

Wow, that's like a left lead punch followed by a right cross Rocco. So sorry that this has all piled up on you.

 

[GadAbout]

I don't know if this can work for you, but I'll offer it anyway.

When I have a particularly difficult time, instead of fighting the sense of being sad or disappointed or overwhelmed, I take it in, get extra sleep, put a few things off till later, and just quietly comfort myself.

Maybe I am naturally resilient, but usually the hard time is limited to a day or two. I think of it as rolling with the punches, instead of taking them head on.

I hope you feel better soon. I'm sorry about the losses you mentioned.

 

[Major Tom]

Good to see you Rocco, but sorry to hear things have been so rough. Keep your chin up.

 

[Bolletje]

Rocco! I missed seeing you around here.
You seem to be going through your own personal hell at the moment. I wish you all the strength and wisdom to deal with your current situation.

 

[Streetwise]

Hello folks. It has been a while since I was active here. Been doing pretty well despite a difficult year. I did some positive affirmations today on the way to work, compelling myself to have a great day and be strong. My day was less than great with a barrage of drama as if it were a summary of some soap opera or sad country song.

7:10 AM
Upset the boss, misread a situation and really got him upset.

7:50 AM
Oops, got him mad again.

12:15 PM
My closest friend stopped communication Sunday, and I discovered today that he died Sunday and his funeral was held an hour before I called today. I cried for 20 minutes quietly in my car.

1:30? PM
Wife signed divorce papers and my divorce is final today. 15 years gone like a morning fog burned off by an angry sun.

3:21 PM heavy traffic jam

6 PM
Found out a third party error may cost me a few thousand dollars.

so far I am holding up well. Maybe it’s shock. Mayhap it be personal development is paying off? I don’t know but I feel like a Sea Wall taking the abuse of an angry storm and waves keep drowning half of me, and the other half endures. Not sure how long I can do this.

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from what ive heard this helps reading the transliterated hebrew

 

[clg114]

I am very sorry to hear about your hardships. Please keep in touch here, we care about you.

 

[SDRSpark]

Goodness. I don't know how I could make it through all that.

Stay strong man. You got this.

 

[Rocco]

I decided to take the day off from work to cope with everything. I appreciate the kind worlds and support from everyone, thank you much.

I woke up at 2am and could not get back to sleep today, so I painted and have relaxed all morning so far. I am supposed to sign my final divorce papers today and decided to just do it and not think about it at all.

I have been looking for months now and plan on either buying another old camaro or corvette. Along with my new apartment, I want a little more change and felt new transportation is in order.

I feel the most helpful thing getting me through is a newfound inner peace most of the time. I have been watching a lot of YouTube videos this year in hope of self improvement. Videos about how to interact more positively with others, sound frequencies alleged to help with inner well being and removal of self destructive behaviors, charisma on command, debate, and listening to classical music during travel.

Happy Friday everyone! I hope your day is pleasant and comfortable.
Best wishes,
Rocco

 

[SDRSpark]

I have been watching a lot of YouTube videos this year in hope of self improvement. Videos about how to interact more positively with others, sound frequencies alleged to help with inner well being and removal of self destructive behaviors,
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Can you share some of these videos?

Also, classic cars are awesome!

 

[Rocco]

Can you share some of these videos?

Also, classic cars are awesome!

I agree, classic cars can be a lot of fun. I took my camaro out last night and drove around a little to soothe myself.

here are screen shots of my relevant you tube history. The watch times vary because I reviewed most of them a time or two.

 

[SDRSpark]

I agree, classic cars can be a lot of fun. I took my camaro out last night and drove around a little to soothe myself.

here are screen shots of my relevant you tube history. The watch times vary because I reviewed most of them a time or two.

Thanks!!! It looks like "Brainwave Power Music" is the channel to follow.

I'm skeptical, but listening to music couldn't possibly hurt, so what the hay? I'll give it a try!

 

[Vinca]

 

[Aspychata]

When going thru breakup, l changed my wheels and the state l lived in. And like you, tried to work on different things.

Good luck, take baby steps so that you don't fall down, say no if you need too. Say yes to you and what you need.

 

[Kalinychta]

I’m so sorry, Rocco. My goodness, what a day. Hang in there.

 

[Rocco]

It keeps coming. my mom just called and told me that my 39 year old sister died today. Numb

 

[Nitro]

It keeps coming. my mom just called and told me that my 39 year old sister died today. Numb

I truly wish there was something I could do to lighten your load.

Please remember that you will always have us here to support you in any manner we can.

 

[Mia]

 

[Streetwise]

It keeps coming. my mom just called and told me that my 39 year old sister died today. Numb

I never knew when the 23rd Psalm talked about The shadow of the valley of death ,it is an actual Valley in Judea !and it is called that because the path from one end of the valley to the safe end is so narrow !that it is easy to fall off,It is literally 2 human feet wide, So when you have passed through it you never forget it and there are many ,many obstacles and dangers But you understand that everybody !!!!!!!has to use that Valley there is no other way to get to the place you have to get to ,nobody is exempt rich or poor.