Danno
Active Member
So after an anxiety filled couple of weeks waiting, today I had my appointment with my GP to ask for referral for ASD diagnosis.
The appointment feels like a blur now, all I know is the doctor did take time to ask relevant questions and listen to the answers. Although it did feel a little uncomfortable and intrusive, I k ow they had to be asked. I took my Mum with me for support and to also help build a case.
Long and short of it is, I got the referral - just have to wait for the Community Mental Health Team to get in touch.
Barely slept last night through overthinking (and as usual for every night for the past goodness-how-many years woke up for no reason at 4am and took another 45 minutes to go back to sleep). And yet got to this morning and had so many half formed thoughts I did have trouble expressing myself to the doctor.
Anyway, got home and had an hour before I had to leave for work and right when I was about to leave had a massive IBS attack and feeling mega stressed with the prospect of facing work, and then thinking about it know I won't be able to focus when I'm there (being on high alert ruins everything, and I know how the over-stimulation in the office will just be too much on top of that) so decided the sensible thing to do was call in for a mental health day of suck leave.
The manager I spoke to did sound more than a little unsupportive (my own line manager is off at the moment) but then again she doesn't know me so I guess there's no real reason to be.
So planning on trying to take the rest of the day easy. Looking into "next steps" between now and Assessment. Listening to Dolly Parton (something I do whenever I experience any major emotions good or bad). Knitting as that helps me block everything else out which above all is what I think I need.
And perhaps start looking at job vacancies in a more suitable environment because even though I do like my job, it's only through working there the last 18 months that I've really been able to focus on and highlight difficulties I face through (potentially) having ASD
The appointment feels like a blur now, all I know is the doctor did take time to ask relevant questions and listen to the answers. Although it did feel a little uncomfortable and intrusive, I k ow they had to be asked. I took my Mum with me for support and to also help build a case.
Long and short of it is, I got the referral - just have to wait for the Community Mental Health Team to get in touch.
Barely slept last night through overthinking (and as usual for every night for the past goodness-how-many years woke up for no reason at 4am and took another 45 minutes to go back to sleep). And yet got to this morning and had so many half formed thoughts I did have trouble expressing myself to the doctor.
Anyway, got home and had an hour before I had to leave for work and right when I was about to leave had a massive IBS attack and feeling mega stressed with the prospect of facing work, and then thinking about it know I won't be able to focus when I'm there (being on high alert ruins everything, and I know how the over-stimulation in the office will just be too much on top of that) so decided the sensible thing to do was call in for a mental health day of suck leave.
The manager I spoke to did sound more than a little unsupportive (my own line manager is off at the moment) but then again she doesn't know me so I guess there's no real reason to be.
So planning on trying to take the rest of the day easy. Looking into "next steps" between now and Assessment. Listening to Dolly Parton (something I do whenever I experience any major emotions good or bad). Knitting as that helps me block everything else out which above all is what I think I need.
And perhaps start looking at job vacancies in a more suitable environment because even though I do like my job, it's only through working there the last 18 months that I've really been able to focus on and highlight difficulties I face through (potentially) having ASD
