Hi, this is my first time writing here, but I have eyed the threads before building up the courage to join.
I'm in my early 20s and moved in with my boyfriend of a year 5 months ago. I know I do a lot of masking of symptoms and have worked slowly to reveal to my boyfriend the extent of it all (meltdowns scare me the most to show). As my diagnosis is official in my home country but not where we live now, we are not getting any support although that would be beneficial.
I do not have enough theoretical knowledge to explain everything and it scares me that he sees my sensory issues, need to be alone, and meltdowns as manipulative or self-absorbed.
Today I came very close to a meltdown but avouded it by being alone in a dark room with a pre-made playlist. Right after I struggled through a short family meeting and then needed to calm down again. I apologized to him for changing my original plans (chores). I said I was sorry for not being more active and he replied "don't worry, you just think of yourself".
I'm worried I'm not capable of living in a "normal" relationship.
I'm in my early 20s and moved in with my boyfriend of a year 5 months ago. I know I do a lot of masking of symptoms and have worked slowly to reveal to my boyfriend the extent of it all (meltdowns scare me the most to show). As my diagnosis is official in my home country but not where we live now, we are not getting any support although that would be beneficial.
I do not have enough theoretical knowledge to explain everything and it scares me that he sees my sensory issues, need to be alone, and meltdowns as manipulative or self-absorbed.
Today I came very close to a meltdown but avouded it by being alone in a dark room with a pre-made playlist. Right after I struggled through a short family meeting and then needed to calm down again. I apologized to him for changing my original plans (chores). I said I was sorry for not being more active and he replied "don't worry, you just think of yourself".
I'm worried I'm not capable of living in a "normal" relationship.