Problem with finding a job and running a YouTube channel

[kityoume]

So, recently, I decided to become a YouTuber because I had a difficult illness and was afraid that I wouldn't be able to fulfill all my desires in life. I always dreamed of having my own YouTube community, and I found it interesting to work with videos. However, I struggle to publish my first videos because I'm afraid to speak in front of the camera, and my speech is always very slow.

I'm making some progress when I post videos, and it's getting a few views, but today it brought me my first hate comment, saying I'm boring, annoying, and have a lot of air between my words, and that I shouldn't be a blogger. This person pointed out the mistakes in my speech that I can see myself, but it's frustrating that I don't have much control over it. I'm expecting to receive a lot of these comments, and it's frustrating, but at least I haven't received any comments saying I'm ugly yet.

I'm also struggling to find a real job, and most of the available jobs are in the service industry (I don't have any special skills, and I'm in my second year of university, so I won't be able to work until I complete my master's degree). I'm not being hired for service or sales jobs for the same reason that people are making fun of me on YouTube! It's because I'm slow and boring.

I know that some people can be charming and find their place in the world, but it's challenging, and I don't understand what kind of job I can find without interacting with people or having any special skills. I'm also not emotional, and my face looks like a robot, unless I'm laughing at my own jokes. I have a few friends in real life and even a relationship, but I don't understand how I got all these people if I'm boring, unemotional, and unhelpful.

 

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....but today it brought me my first hate comment,

Try not to take too much notice of what people say online, it's not always easy but try.

Online some people will say things that they would never dare say in a real world public space because normal people will hit them. Some people find real joy in tormenting others and being able to do that while completely anonymous and safe is their idea of heaven. They want to see an upset reaction from you, that's the reward they are seeking. Don't respond, just ignore them, that drives them mental.

This person pointed out the mistakes in my speech that I can see myself, but it's frustrating that I don't have much control over it.

This can be changed with practice and speech exercises, but it takes both effort and a strong desire to achieve results.

 

[cooljethro]

Sorry to hear about your demeanour and it impeding your YouTube success.

I hope that you find a job that suits you and your place in the world.