Pls important question I dont understand this. General numbness?

[Iamnotarabot]

Hi

So, this is something about me I dont understand.

My last session with my therapist last thursday , and we tried to talk about some serious matter, tbf I cant even recall what the session was about, I cant realy recall what any session with her was about anyway, outside if very general matter.

All i remember is that I was very talkative , made joke etc , but you know too much talkative realy, in a nervous way.

And then something happened , that day my chest pain increased, but the night after It litteraly went crazy, after watching some videos about mental health( thats my main occupation since february realy).

I felt that I had a reflex near my pain it is hard to explain because I have not the technical words but it was like I had the beginning of the reflex you have before you vomit ( in a less strong way) ; so I started to do some research and found that my chest pain and many things in this area could be related to digestive issues like reflux etc..

But this is not the reason of the topic.

Since that day, I feel like, everything is numb down, well not realy but...

Emotionnaly, It feels like I am in a kind of cocoon, like most of the time I enjoy music, it gives me vibes, chills, and it i listen to something sad or a music that reminds of of some stuff it makes me emotionnal..

But here I feel like a little to nothing , I browsed throught the music that I am used to listen to make me cry, nothing, it feels like there is some invisible wall between my ears and my brain that blocks any emotion.

And physically its kind of the opposite, during the first few days I couldnt stand all the little things that I am used to , all my body felt bad to sum this up.

This has calm down a little but for instance today I shaved and it was realy painfull I felt like my beard was made of metal and any hear of my beard felt like it was ripped from my face, realy unpleasant. It happens sometimes.

So to sums this up I feel like I am in some kind of suits that numbs all my emotion but at the same time increases some of the physical things.
For instance I am listening to a music I am used to like and it clearly pisses me off right now.


Any one else experience that and know what it is?


Edit : Pls I dont know why but today I felt the urge to redo one of my bad habits, I eat like 2k calories of junkfood in 20min :s still felt nothing except a stomach full , it reminds me of the period I was doing some self harm and boulimia.

 

[SparklAng]

I can relate to a lot of what you are saying. Sometimes I just feel so empty. Really bored too. But I dont want to do anything, because in that moment nothing excites me. I can be especially irritable in those times, noises and lights get to me more than usual as well. and I mostly end up either snapping at or ignoring other people. Or just answering one word answers to make them go away. It is very confusing. Emocional detatchment, but physically it feels like somone has turned up a 'volume dial' on my senes. Prehaps because of the lack of emocional reaction? I hope things get better for you. It is easy for me to say, less easy for it to happen. But ai mean it genuinely.

 

[Bolletje]

I think it might be healthy for you to focus on other things than (mental) health in your free time. Correct me if I’m wrong, but from your posts, I get the sense that you’re rather obsessed with it. This only serves to magnify everything that’s happening to you and carries the risk of pathologizing otherwise normal things. Try to shift your focus to something more relaxing.

 

[Iamnotarabot]

Well this situation I am in since a few days is actually something I regulary felt since a long time and now that I am concerned about all of that I may overreact this is true.

Just wanted to know if anyone felt that.But yeah I am too focus on that, what can I do to change that, no idea.

 

[Loren]

Just a thought, but, perhaps your therapist touched on something related to a past trauma, or something that caused you extreme anxiety, even if you were not, or, are not aware of what it is. Your symptoms seem in line with being triggered, and, you mentioned the initial symptoms being experienced during your therapy session. Also, in regard to what you experienced while shaving - anxiety can effect sensory processing, can magnify everything related to your senses, and you may be far more sensitive to pain, than you normally, would be. Anxiety can, also, effect your mood and make you edgy, and the other feelings you described.

I, also, agree with what Bolletje mentioned - that, you would be best off, directing your focus away from mental health issues. Of course, it is important to work through issues, to get to a healthy place, but, if you were to try meditation, or, going for a run/engage in some type of vigorous exercise, to activate your endorphins and work off some of the negative thoughts in the moment, you may find some peace and the ability to move forward from whatever it might be that is plaguing you. Just my 2 cents, and could be wrong on all counts, since I don't know you. Best wishes to you !

 

[onlything]

Emptiness is rather common after severe emotional breakdown. It's a way for your subconscious to 'protect' you from even more emotional pain, at least in my experience. It is possible that you're in a kind of emotional shock after 'going crazy' that one night.

Concerning the music you listen to, sometimes songs I listened to before one of, especially a short time before, the breakdowns start to make me distressed because they remind me of what happened.

 

[Iamnotarabot]

The weirdest thing...

Is this normal? Is this the way that i am used to be that is too emotionnal and not normal? Feeling no emotion is how everyone live their everyday life? I dont get it.

I dont even know anymore.

 

[kay]

I can't say I've experienced exactly what you describe but I have felt numb and over-sensitive at the same time. Different circumstances. I had a very stressful two months and it was obviously due to that. I did gradually get back to sorta normal after a lot of sleep. At least the numbness left after about a week. It took longer for the being even more sensitive than usual part, I stay pretty sensitive anyways. I can't guess what might have happened to you but it does sound like it could be stress related. The chest pain, though, how is that? Might want to get that checked.

 

[onlything]

The weirdest thing...

Is this normal? Is this the way that i am used to be that is too emotionnal and not normal? Feeling no emotion is how everyone live their everyday life? I dont get it.

I dont even know anymore.

It's a part of depression. You felt too much and you're burnt out. It'll pass sooner or later. Then it'll come again. Like a circle.

 

[Progster]

I've experienced this emotional numbness, too, and I agree with @onlything that it is related to depression, burnout or a shutdown.

 

[Iamnotarabot]

Hum, I'm not sure im totally out of it.

But , after almost one week now, iv finally found a music that managed to make me cry,( a song from a very very old show for kids in my country, i dont even have any memory if watching it but apparently I did.) and it works fine, after that its like I've managed to evacuate what was blocking me, most of it it seems.

 

[Mary Lyn]

Numbness in extremities with depression can be a symptom of vitamin B12 deficiency.

This vitamin is not easy to absorb for some people even if they are eating red meat and or taking B12 supplements. It has to be absobed in the mouth or given by injections sometimes to get levels up. I would ask your doc to do a blood test.