Overwhelmed

[CassLovesBears]

Im writing this after just getting done with a very anxious experience. I was a witness at court and was going to have to speak on a stand. I ended up not having to speak but I was sitting in anxiety for approximately 5 hours waiting. I was terrified trying to think out my responses if they asked me certain questions. I feel exhausted/drained beyond all belief. I want to curl into a ball and cry for an hour. I hate feelings lol. I know no one cares but I needed to write this all out to make me feel a little better/distract myself. I don't know how to calm myself down really besides a dark quiet room with fuzzy comfort items and video games :'( I'm on my way home going to cry. If for whatever reason you read this I want to thank you...I know problems usually just burden or bore others.

 

[Tom]

I was on a jury once. The court environment is stressful. I think being a witness (or preparing to be) harder then being on the jury where you can mostly just observe.

 

[Aru]

This is a totally okay thing to feel! Don't feel bad for posting it, You did really well in even going Just think it's all over now, Enjoy those games to relax and calm yourself

 

[Mia]

Find that really strenuous activity for a while after something like that helps. Then I take a bath and read or nap. I would have been a mess too Cass, after that. But probably more angry/frustrated/annoyed at the loss of my time than anything else.

 

[Bolletje]

I hope you have a good cathartic cry when you’re back home.

 

[Judge]

Going to court or being in a deposition even as just a witness can be incredibly stressful. Where it's more than likely the opposing counsel will attempt to deliberately impugn your testimony in some way. Being a juror can be equally difficult, faced with having to make some serious decisions about someone's life.

Over the years I've had to do all these things a number of times, mostly connected with my job in insurance. Where either someone is suing us or we are suing them. As a juror I've participated in two cases involving felony hit-and-run and attempted murder. Deadly serious and stressful things to deal with for sure.

 

[tducey]

Never been in that situation before but I can see how it could be a stressful thing for anyone. I hope you're feeling better now.

 

[Peter Morrison]

You had a very stressful situation. You have every right to feel exhausted and anxious. Anxiety leaves me feeling ill-at-ease for hours. Do all the comfort activities you need. Take care of yourself. A new day is coming.

 

[H-Kath]

I'd have been a wreck! It's good to cry and go do the things you know will help soothe after something like that.

 

[Fino]

That's terrible!

And many care, including me.
Problems aren't boring or burdening.

 

[Pats]

Oh my - yes, that would have been a nightmarish situation! I get worked up if I have to go to the courthouse for just paperwork stuff, or going to the DMV. I'm glad you decided to share it and I hope it helped a little bit to know you are not alone. You deserve a good cry and I would have done the exact same thing.

I think some people actually like that kind of stuff, they like the adrenalin. I don't. I've been procrastinating going to Autozone to see if they can add Freon to my car a/c. Was going to go yesterday, but had to go to Walmart first and by the time I finished in Walmart had to come back home.

 

[Markyg]

Just a thought....goes an autism diagnosis mean you dont have to do jury duty??

 

[Fino]

Oh my - yes, that would have been a nightmarish situation! I get worked up if I have to go to the courthouse for just paperwork stuff, or going to the DMV. I'm glad you decided to share it and I hope it helped a little bit to know you are not alone. You deserve a good cry and I would have done the exact same thing.

I think some people actually like that kind of stuff, they like the adrenalin. I don't. I've been procrastinating going to Autozone to see if they can add Freon to my car a/c. Was going to go yesterday, but had to go to Walmart first and by the time I finished in Walmart had to come back home.

Tell us if you do!!! I wanna know if they can add freon!

 

[Pats]

Tell us if you do!!! I wanna know if they can add freon!

I stopped today - they don't do it due to liabilities, but I picked up a thing of Freon - he said it was easy to do. My grandson said he would do it for me. But I did look at a you tube video and it doesn't look hard.

Oh - one of my grandsons was bored today and washed my car - it looks great!

 

[CassLovesBears]

Just a thought....goes an autism diagnosis mean you dont have to do jury duty??

It wasn't jury duty and I'm not officially diagnosed yet. I was a witness to a "crime". The person was innocent so I was suppose to tell them what I saw. The case instantly got dismissed because they said it was pointless and no one did anything wrong.