I can understand your perspective, to some extent. But I feel like your attitude is a major influence on why you struggle so much in the world. I healed most of the feelings I had of low confidence/self esteem/acceptance. When I did that I was able to see the world as a MUCH more beautiful place. It took time and effort.
I once read something like “the way you see the world is the way the world sees you” or maybe it was the way you feel about the world is a self admission. Something along those line and concepts.
What I got from that idea is that:
negativity breeds negativity.
a positive outlook allows you to see the beauty and kindness in the world.
It also reaffirmed my belief of the idea to “be the change you want to see in the world”
Sorry, not sorry. It's the way I am, you'll never change me.
This is an example I would like to draw your attention to. You have expressed many negative feelings and talked about negative situations in a few different threads and replies. At times you seem to lament the “hand that life has dealt” you, or at minimum expressed unhappiness with your social connections and social standing with others.
If you never change, your experiences in life are not likely to improve.
In the Tao Te Ching there is a phrase similar to “the tree that does not bend will break.” I reflected on that a lot over the years. Inflexibility can break you.
I believe people have to improvise, adapt, and overcome when faced with challenges in life. If you move to a foreign country that does not speak your language, you need to learn the local language or be an outsider forever. If you want to mesh with NTs you have to learn some social skills. I think we need to adapt ourselves, as best as possible in a healthy way, to the neurotypical world. We cannot expect life to cater to us, or that the world will try to meet us on a level playing field.
It’s like in a healthy romantic relationship, both individuals need to work on themselves and the relationship. You cannot simply be on autopilot through a relationship. It takes effort to build it, make it grow, and maintain health. I see life the same way. You get out what you put in.
The Christian bible says something like “the one who plants few seeds will have a small harvest. The one who plants many seeds will have a big harvest”
What kind of “seeds” are you planting in this life, and how many?
After my own personal struggles in life I eventually realized my attitude was horrible. I had self pity and felt wronged by life. I was consumed with negativity. Trauma and circumstances beyond my control led me to have a negative life. Simply hoping for things to get better was a complete waste of time. Finally, I actively decided to adopt a more positive outlook. I looked for beauty in the minutiae of life. I looked for the silver lining in dark clouds. I learned to see the good even in the bad things.
For example, I get cut off on the road by a driver who then goes slow or slows down. I used to get frustrated or angry with things like that. Now instead of feeling belligerent about the situation I learned to realize that maybe I’m going too fast, or should take the opportunity to look at the trees and flowers on the side of the road for a moment, maybe the other driver is having a medical or emotional problem and unaware of the obstruction they caused. Maybe they are just stoned and oblivious.
In general you have the power to choose how you will react or respond to situations in life. Not all the time, but enough that it can shape your attitude.
I believe that if you could adopt a more positive outlook, find gratitude, be mindful of the good things in your life, that your situation will improve. It’s not a guarantee, but has your current perspective helped you in any way?
) Most of the time I am content or feel at peace when my face blanks out though, so it is not a fair indicator of what’s happening in my head in that moment.
