Obtaining Satisfaction

[frostman]

Hello,

I'm searching for solutions to a certain issue: I cannot seem to derive satisfaction from my efforts and achievements. I am a student. To be clear, I don't have anything significant to my name. I have won no awards, nor have I produced any sort of project; I play no instruments nor partake in any sport (I exercise frequently, but, having in my childhood faced much difficulty with sports and instruments, did not pursue them).

I achieve very good grades and my schoolfellows consider me to be intelligent. Others' opinions about me range from favourable to very positive. In short, I am not remarkable, but without doubt I lead a good life, perhaps even slightly above average. Despite this, I constantly experience a sense of dissatisfaction and disappointment with myself. I minimise, dismiss or ignore my consistently good performance in school and without it. My family and acquaintances seem to appreciate my progress better than I do.

Introspection has suggested to me that perhaps I am presently unable to attain such a state, even if I were much higher achieving than I currently am; this, however, is far from certain. I wish to ask you whether you may have any experience or information which may elucidate this phenomenon; I'm looking for means to overcome this, but your thoughts on the matter are also highly appreciated.

My Thanks.

 

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I was a tradesman, a printer. I had a friend that confided he was envious of me one day. He said he didn't envy the hard physical work I did but the fact that I got to see pallets of work I'd completed at the end of every day. He'd always had clerical jobs and he had to rely on other people's comments to know if he was doing a good job or not.

 

[Ronald Zeeman]

Welcome to the club. your just a typical Aspie. The only award I have ever won is a shooting trophy in high school my kids broke it a few years later. Once you get in to the work force then things may start to happen, Drove me nuts no promotion, changed positions still not moving, got more education still dead in the water, Noticed over time I could see stuff co workers could not see so obvious to me. Started doing it my way ignoring supervisors management. Then they started noticing my stuff was working. Not Being a good communicator, they just started leaving me to my own devices, If it works leave him alone. I made a point of learning what was need to solve what I could see took a course on paint flow and pigment dispersion as I watched colour move at on an appliance when painted had no idea why had a theory sure enough in the text book was a formuladecribing fluid flowing through a pipe which I got immediately as I had graduated as an engineering technologist years prior, So did the calculation yes it explained why the colour moved. Years later I set up a lab set up so I could predict the movement prior to using the ink or paint on the process, really confused the chemists as they knew nothing about fluid flow through pipes. This bit of knowledge to this day is not common in the coating manufacturing industry. Made my employer a leader in colour control. No award no credit just very satisfying. This is just one example did this a number of times. Coating adhesion issues, for example. So common see it on automobiles, so easy to fix at process level.