Not being able to trust

[deathrow2016]

Not going to whine about my personal life. But let's just say I've reached a point in my life where trusting anyone is not possible. I don't even trust professionals. I stopped going to the doctors entirely and although I'm forced to have insurance, I don't think I'd do so even in an emergency unless it was for someone else. Anyone else feel me?

 

[watersprite]

I feel similarly. I still trust 2 people in my life, but that's it.
Edited to add I especially do not trust doctors and dentists.

 

[deathrow2016]

Perhaps we should get jackets made, because that's precisely how I feel! I have one Person that I trust, but I'll save that for the Christian Aspies thread.

I think one of the problems (or challenges) with being an Aspie is we tend to have a trusting nature and then are easily hurt, conned, etc. When that happens, our outlook takes a 180 degree turn. My doctor retired, but before he did I didn't fully trust him. I trust "mental health professionals" even less. My closest friends I trust to a certain point, but that's out of necessity. Since I'm totally alone in the world, I have to trust somebody that can claim my body if I'm suddenly killed by a stampede of wild bison.

I used to trust but not anymore. If something hurts, you learn not to do it again at some point. I pretend to in order to get by. But still I wouldn't let anybody know what I think or feel anymore.

 

[Judge]

X-Files, Baby!

-Trust No One.

For me, trust is something to be rationed- and in degrees. No one with two legs is truly above or beyond my suspicion.

 

[Butterfly88]

I was abused as a child so I'm constantly worried people are going to attack me. Therefore, trust is hard for me. I do manage to go to doctors though, and I trust my therapist.

 

[deathrow2016]

I was abused as a child so I'm constantly worried people are going to attack me. Therefore, trust is hard for me. I do manage to go to doctors though, and I trust my therapist.

Same emotionally and also by an ex. I can't trust either or even if I was having a heart attack.

 

[clg114]

I have the opposite problem, I trust people to much. Because of this, some people have taken advantage of me. I have gotten a little more wary in my old age, but I still have very trusting nature. I can not help it, it is just the way that I am.

 

[Judge]

I don't trust cats.

LOL. Point taken.

 

[Loomis]

I trust nearly everyone I encounter. This behavior evolved over the last three or four years. It started developing very soon after I was diagnosed aspie, was separated from my ex-wife and endured some extreme additional life-churning events.

My beliefs, attitudes, perceptions, values and praxis are all very different now. I attribute the changes to long periods of daily meditation, some adjustments to my medications along with an aggressive immersion into social situations. I have become comfortable with NTs, internally calm, relaxed, and free from anxiety.

Initially my meditations were non-specific and varied. I started with Christian meditations but was not satisfied with the results so I moved on to some new age stuff and although it was better it was not exactly what I was looking for. About four months ago I started reading about Buddhist meditation techniques and tried some of them out. They are very comfortable and productive. Eventually I worked up to two hours or more of meditation every morning. The effect is profound. I must meditate now every morning or it throws off my entire day.

So Buddhism is becoming a special interest of mine. I have never been to a Buddhist temple or talked to a Buddhist about how it all works but there is a huge amount of free resources on the Internet. I am working my way through the literature now to develop some understanding of Buddhist history, theory and philosophy.