rachbttffan
New Member
Hi all. I really don't know how to start, i'm a little apprehensive to be honest. I haven't been diagnosed with aspergers, however i' ve always felt 'different'. At 38 and a single mum of 5 children i have always felt asthough i'm not like the average person, whatever that is. I have always been childlike and have been told that on a few occasions. I dont actually feel my age, never have. I have a huge fear of abandonment and i feel emotions a lot more deep than my peers. I feel asthough i'm not myself around others and it is exhausting pretending to be someone i'm not. I am so f**cking confused. I dont wven know the real me. I'm fed up of being the nice girl and i just want to explode and reveal the real me. I don't think i have aspergers but most probably ****ed up due to my up-bringing and abusive relationships. P.S i am actually a nice person just a litle unstable!!