Rainbow-Sprinkles
Active Member
Hey people,
I'm quite a complex person. I have autism and OCD, however, I think I'm quite severely depressed. I'm on medication - 60mg of Prozac. It's works well for the OCD, but not so much for the depression. Also I'm extremely overweight as well, so that could be contributing to the depression.
Anyways, I think I once had an episode of psychosis back when I was 16-years old. I started believing that anime/cartoon characters hated my mum. I have no idea why I thought like this, but it's was so distressing to me. None of the therapy I learned worked and no matter what kind of lists I'd make to say why this thought wasn't true, it didn't work. I was on hardly any medication and started gaining weight again due to eating too much to cope with distressing feelings. I think I lacked insight really badly because I honestly thought these characters were superior and better than us and had feelings too.
I think that if I came off my medication or had my dosage lowered, I would start experiencing these types of thoughts, beliefs, and feelings again. Also, I kind of want to change medication because my depression is quite bad. I'm not sure if I lost weight that the depression would just disappear?
These last 3-years, I've been on the same meds and I can feel myself slipping into a deep, dark depression. I can hear things and sometimes see things too. I can taste things in my nose as well, like smoke and mayo. I also think that Japanese people are the best because of their cartoons and comics. I think that no lives matter - only Japanese. I know this isn't true, but it causes me to want to sometimes kill myself because I think my life doesn't matter.
I also imagine things a lot. For example, I get mental images of me committing suicide and how the mental health team would find me on top of a building, needles going through my belly button, and other images. I also imagine people getting ran over by cars or people stopping me in the road. It's a bit weird.
Regarding the anime/cartoon characters, I'm not sure if that was psychosis, OCD, or both? Is it possible to have autism and psychosis?
I don't know if I should seek help because I'm not sure if a psychiatrist will believe me.
I'm quite a complex person. I have autism and OCD, however, I think I'm quite severely depressed. I'm on medication - 60mg of Prozac. It's works well for the OCD, but not so much for the depression. Also I'm extremely overweight as well, so that could be contributing to the depression.
Anyways, I think I once had an episode of psychosis back when I was 16-years old. I started believing that anime/cartoon characters hated my mum. I have no idea why I thought like this, but it's was so distressing to me. None of the therapy I learned worked and no matter what kind of lists I'd make to say why this thought wasn't true, it didn't work. I was on hardly any medication and started gaining weight again due to eating too much to cope with distressing feelings. I think I lacked insight really badly because I honestly thought these characters were superior and better than us and had feelings too.
I think that if I came off my medication or had my dosage lowered, I would start experiencing these types of thoughts, beliefs, and feelings again. Also, I kind of want to change medication because my depression is quite bad. I'm not sure if I lost weight that the depression would just disappear?
These last 3-years, I've been on the same meds and I can feel myself slipping into a deep, dark depression. I can hear things and sometimes see things too. I can taste things in my nose as well, like smoke and mayo. I also think that Japanese people are the best because of their cartoons and comics. I think that no lives matter - only Japanese. I know this isn't true, but it causes me to want to sometimes kill myself because I think my life doesn't matter.
I also imagine things a lot. For example, I get mental images of me committing suicide and how the mental health team would find me on top of a building, needles going through my belly button, and other images. I also imagine people getting ran over by cars or people stopping me in the road. It's a bit weird.
Regarding the anime/cartoon characters, I'm not sure if that was psychosis, OCD, or both? Is it possible to have autism and psychosis?
I don't know if I should seek help because I'm not sure if a psychiatrist will believe me.