Kylah
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I'm not entirely sure if I posted this in the right forum, but...
Okay, so, like some people with autism, I have extreme social anxiety. I have difficulties making new friends, I have paranoia in terms of bullying, and I have major trust issues.
Currently, my social anxiety is getting worse, in these ways:
1. It appears that every time I make new friends, things go wrong between us. I end up feeling replaced, like a friend would rather hang out with someone else. I end up saying the wrong things and hurting our friendships. On social media, my messages constantly get ignored, and I had a few friends block me without telling me why.
2. I always feel as though I'm too attached to my friends. I have some friends that I really enjoy talking to, but according to some past experiences with over-texting, I try to give them some space. However, there are times where I have these strong urges to text them, and I have to fight the urges for the sake of maintaining my friendships. It sometimes frustrates me to the point where I just break down and cry because it hurts.
3. Romance hurts me. I get low self-esteem every time I see a couple. It makes me feel like I'm worthless, like I'm not pretty or overall-good enough to have a boyfriend. I'm especially jealous with this one couple in particular. There's this girl who's a little more shy than me, and somehow a more extrovert guy just approaches her and decides to make her his girlfriend. It hurts me because the girl is more shy than me and she managed to attract someone, but me? I can't seem to have good luck with guys at all. Well, I did manage to get a boyfriend, but I said something I shouldn't have, and our relationship ended pretty quick. Additionally, I've been dating a lot of fictional characters, but I still feel lonely with all the real-life couples around.
Because of my social anxiety, I'm becoming more and more antisocial. I'm starting to think that maybe I would be safer with imaginary friends rather than real friends. I've hurt my self over real people before, and I really don't want that to happen again...
What should I do at this point? Any tips on how I can get through this without hurting myself?
Okay, so, like some people with autism, I have extreme social anxiety. I have difficulties making new friends, I have paranoia in terms of bullying, and I have major trust issues.
Currently, my social anxiety is getting worse, in these ways:
1. It appears that every time I make new friends, things go wrong between us. I end up feeling replaced, like a friend would rather hang out with someone else. I end up saying the wrong things and hurting our friendships. On social media, my messages constantly get ignored, and I had a few friends block me without telling me why.
2. I always feel as though I'm too attached to my friends. I have some friends that I really enjoy talking to, but according to some past experiences with over-texting, I try to give them some space. However, there are times where I have these strong urges to text them, and I have to fight the urges for the sake of maintaining my friendships. It sometimes frustrates me to the point where I just break down and cry because it hurts.
3. Romance hurts me. I get low self-esteem every time I see a couple. It makes me feel like I'm worthless, like I'm not pretty or overall-good enough to have a boyfriend. I'm especially jealous with this one couple in particular. There's this girl who's a little more shy than me, and somehow a more extrovert guy just approaches her and decides to make her his girlfriend. It hurts me because the girl is more shy than me and she managed to attract someone, but me? I can't seem to have good luck with guys at all. Well, I did manage to get a boyfriend, but I said something I shouldn't have, and our relationship ended pretty quick. Additionally, I've been dating a lot of fictional characters, but I still feel lonely with all the real-life couples around.
Because of my social anxiety, I'm becoming more and more antisocial. I'm starting to think that maybe I would be safer with imaginary friends rather than real friends. I've hurt my self over real people before, and I really don't want that to happen again...
What should I do at this point? Any tips on how I can get through this without hurting myself?