I've been in a long distance relationship with someone who's on the spectrum for almost 5 years now. It's mostly arguments, stress and butting heads. The rare moments where there's "happiness" or what I believe is "love" are short lived.
I'm... just tired. I know relationships aren't always rainbows and sunshine, but I don't think they should be all doom and gloom, either. Both of us often complain that our needs aren't getting met. It's a mess.
Even if this wasn't an issue, I don't see us ever closing the distance. At this point, I can't picture a future together. He wants to work together, get married and have children. I don't particularly care to work together (but could compromise), don't really care if I get married or not (again, comprisable) and more than anything, don't have any desires to have children (if I could, I would get sterilized now).
The issue I have is besides family, this is the only person I have in my life. When it comes down to it, yes, I love him dearly... However, I deep down wished he treated me differently. I wish I felt loved. I know painfully well that people won't change nor do I have the right to push my 'wants' on him. However, I'd be lying if I'd say deep down, I wish there was someone who was like that.
I don't really have something I'd like to achieve by writing this. I guess I'm just sick of holding this in and not being able to share.
Anyway, if you read all of this, sorry for my venting.
Hope you're all hanging on.
I'm... just tired. I know relationships aren't always rainbows and sunshine, but I don't think they should be all doom and gloom, either. Both of us often complain that our needs aren't getting met. It's a mess.
Even if this wasn't an issue, I don't see us ever closing the distance. At this point, I can't picture a future together. He wants to work together, get married and have children. I don't particularly care to work together (but could compromise), don't really care if I get married or not (again, comprisable) and more than anything, don't have any desires to have children (if I could, I would get sterilized now).
The issue I have is besides family, this is the only person I have in my life. When it comes down to it, yes, I love him dearly... However, I deep down wished he treated me differently. I wish I felt loved. I know painfully well that people won't change nor do I have the right to push my 'wants' on him. However, I'd be lying if I'd say deep down, I wish there was someone who was like that.
I don't really have something I'd like to achieve by writing this. I guess I'm just sick of holding this in and not being able to share.
Anyway, if you read all of this, sorry for my venting.
Hope you're all hanging on.
