lACK oF sELF iMPORTANCE

[Kayla55]

This one gets to me the most, more than dancing or struggling to have guts to say what I really think....
On the farm I was noticing this again, but this time it was many years later, I felt as if I was drowning and so it must have being magnified. How others assert their needs when feel mistreated.
Again, a very autistic issue such as was it I was ignored, mistreated or put down that caused my digression or as some pay PTSD related to form of abuse.
How do others so vigorously have will to be so bold asserting their needs. Not only that but seem more clued up in how to remedy the matter, oh, I feel so lost.

Is this ASD or being mistreated?

 

[FayetheAspie]

I think it could be either or even both.

 

[Kayla55]

I hate the school system, for managing to finally dictate to me. This Montessori School kept my son back due to his written language, said his maths was on higher level but I think they humouring me. I blame this on affecting our home schooling because I wasted so much time on stupid language and should've gone ahead with maths homeschooling. This was their insecurity, and now I've allowed them to get us down.
It's so tough to defy the system, and I realise now how lack of support has really knocked us down.

When/if we allow others to define our reality for us, we set ourselves up for failure!! Prepare to put in twice as much work to be considered half as good. Or maybe just failed recognition their NT capsule of denial does monkey see, monkey copy faster than we can socially adapt to understanding.... It's almost like AI publishing info and trying to convince yourself that you still intelligent when obviously don't stand chance against this.

 

[Kayla55]

Under my big blanket, I hide my fears at night. By morning I'd realised my hands clasped close to me and hands were positioned in disabled positioning, as if in spasm. Reality is dawning on me more clearly that with each passing day I'm less able to work and unlike my neighbours I don't own my own property.
I know already from past that no vacant land exists, that is informal settling and disciplinary action involved, going off grid means at least owning some land which leads to my next point of do I trust others to look after my offspring when I die, no I don't, not properly or with necessary caring at least.
I'm doomed due to my failed BSc subject, along with sales and accounting for the bottom left be, I am a failure!!

 

[Shamar]

This one gets to me the most, more than dancing or struggling to have guts to say what I really think....
On the farm I was noticing this again, but this time it was many years later, I felt as if I was drowning and so it must have being magnified. How others assert their needs when feel mistreated.
Again, a very autistic issue such as was it I was ignored, mistreated or put down that caused my digression or as some pay PTSD related to form of abuse.
How do others so vigorously have will to be so bold asserting their needs. Not only that but seem more clued up in how to remedy the matter, oh, I feel so lost.

Is this ASD or being mistreated?

In my experience, it is being mistreated because of ASD. The inability to stand up for yourself seems to be a beacon for people to build themselves up by making others weaker. Don't let others judge you for what you can't do. After all, you shouldn't judge a fish for it's inability to climb a tree. See my avatar for proof.