Lemon Zing
Well-Known Member
The reason I've giving up on that sort of stuff is because it's not going to change anything and many forums have been kind of dead in recent years too. Just looking at online photos of these former support aides makes me feel low. And two, I don't think a lot of people on message boards neither care nor fully understand. As a matter of fact, I gave up socializing with people and just live kind of like a hermit now because it was always the same thing with all of these people anyway: I was getting mistreated, people only talking to me because 'it was a job' or an ex using me for money (that I spent years looking for), and I was even getting harassed by sex workers (like, I even had a good TG experience once and then I even had her randomly following me around and flaming me for some reason) and people to do with films spreading slander, or at least I believe they have been. So after all that commotion with bullying for years and years, I just lost interest very recently. Social services don't help people. They just hold your feet to a fire if you are branded as trouble. They ruined my sister's life too by removing her kids. And they intentionally can cancel contact with her son and do things that suited her ex.
After discovering that all the ingresses I faced were alike, I thought it was kind of dumb to continue. I'm probably going to make 2019 my last year for enjoying 80's music too, and gaming, and everything else. It holds me down. The people from that era are so old now. The music is very dated, I'll agree, but that time was rather toxic anyhow, and you cannot live in the past forever. I've had people saying to me that I need to get a life because I ramble too much about 80's music and I used to like talking to people about stuff like that, but now I've realized that they only kidded on to listen to what I had to say, likely for politeness reasons. Well, maybe they just aren't interested in it. But to be honest, people are just people no matter where they're from.
I kind of don't trust, nor like a lot of people. The ones I did like turned on me or left my life, or both. There seems to be some magical wall or rulebook for one set of people and then some etiquette for another set of people, and I was starting to feel like the butt of a lot of jokes. I don't even get a following on YouTube and I had one guy saying I get a free ride, and need to enjoy my monthly retard payment (his words, not mine). So I think this snooty personality from people is way too much. This is why I miss my granny. She didn't like it when folk weren't nice to me and she had a good, chatty personality. Since she died in 2004, I've had bomb of that. I even kind of went off Hispanic people, but it wasn't necessarily to be racist. I just had bad experiences. So I often think a lot of stuff is meaningless now. I've even had chest pains. Very odd ones. At first, I thought it was anxiety, but lately, it has felt more weird. My face burns a lot, as well. Although I wouldn't be amazed if it was anxiety, or depression related.
Note that I don't use drugs, smoke or drink.
After discovering that all the ingresses I faced were alike, I thought it was kind of dumb to continue. I'm probably going to make 2019 my last year for enjoying 80's music too, and gaming, and everything else. It holds me down. The people from that era are so old now. The music is very dated, I'll agree, but that time was rather toxic anyhow, and you cannot live in the past forever. I've had people saying to me that I need to get a life because I ramble too much about 80's music and I used to like talking to people about stuff like that, but now I've realized that they only kidded on to listen to what I had to say, likely for politeness reasons. Well, maybe they just aren't interested in it. But to be honest, people are just people no matter where they're from.
I kind of don't trust, nor like a lot of people. The ones I did like turned on me or left my life, or both. There seems to be some magical wall or rulebook for one set of people and then some etiquette for another set of people, and I was starting to feel like the butt of a lot of jokes. I don't even get a following on YouTube and I had one guy saying I get a free ride, and need to enjoy my monthly retard payment (his words, not mine). So I think this snooty personality from people is way too much. This is why I miss my granny. She didn't like it when folk weren't nice to me and she had a good, chatty personality. Since she died in 2004, I've had bomb of that. I even kind of went off Hispanic people, but it wasn't necessarily to be racist. I just had bad experiences. So I often think a lot of stuff is meaningless now. I've even had chest pains. Very odd ones. At first, I thought it was anxiety, but lately, it has felt more weird. My face burns a lot, as well. Although I wouldn't be amazed if it was anxiety, or depression related.
Note that I don't use drugs, smoke or drink.
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