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In a dark place

Jeremiah ayers

Jeremiah ayers

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10 years with the woman I love and two days ago she says she doesn't know how she feels about me. About us today she tells me she has been talking to this guy everyday and she likes it and instead of cheating on me and hurting me she thought it was better to leave me and hurt me. Because she has been thinking about doing something with this guy. So 10 years two beautiful girls later she wants to have sex some one else and not hurt me. And I'm the one who may have a mental disorder. So I know I have two little girls but I really would rather just be dead right now. I want to smash things I want to die I want to cry and I have no one I can go to. I have nothing. And no where to go no money nothing and I have to change everything in my life now because of this. And I'm loseing my mind everything is in my brain explodeding and it hurts so much I can't breath. Why what have I done in my life to have all of this was it just because I was born is it a game I sick joke I just wanted a happy normal life and I got this. I need someone too and I didn't go looking else where for it.
 
Very sorry to hear this Jeremiah it sounds so tough for you. Can u speak with a friend or a helpline or counsellor? There are ways through this and many of us sadly have been there, or similar. Your daughters totally need you to look after yourself whatever way you can, you are everything to them.

Perhaps you and your partner could go to counselling together? You could talk to her about that when you feel less distressed?
 
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What a horrible situation you're in; I'm so sorry you're enduring such awful emotional pain.

Would your wife/partner be willing to go to couples therapy before she makes a life changing decision to break a 10 year relationship? You have a long history together and two girls so that will count for something.

Please stay safe, try not to lose it/smash things. Keep posting if it helps.

Sorry if this post is a bit feeble, but I don't know what to say that will give you any comfort.
 
Thank you I'm working on myself to keep rooted and you guys are awesome thank you. And I'm fight back against my desire to give in to my emotions. I'm thankful I found this site
 
I hope you can get to a place where you can be strong for your daughters.

Will your wife agree to counselling?

I should also say that getting independent advice re divorce and what your rights are may also be a positive step.

It's just the advice. Any 3rd party that has experience and can help you plan may help.

Perhaps reach out to divorced people in separate thread.

They may be able to give better advice -

1. How to protect yourself if it goes that far.
2. How to avoid it,if possible.

Stay strong.
 
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