Impossible online therapist

[if6wasnin9]

Saw online therapist. I can't talk about it! I am furious! I can't get it out of my head!
She didn't understand a thing I said! It was like I was talking Japanese?
She didn't understand that lots of Drs/therapists have ignored me last 10 years. Or that I've been abused in all hospitals last 40 years. Or that the rope didn't work when I tried to kill myself after Prozac destroyed me two years ago! She had me explain 4 times why the rope didn't work! I told her 4 times the knot didn't work and she didn't understand!! She said "What do you mean "they ignored you"?".
I can't take anymore of the mental health system! I've had enough of this circus! I want out asap!!
I needed someone who would listen to me because I feel horrible! I feel numb all the time and can't take it! I've felt like this last 45 years since I was 13 and nothing has helped! And I've been told I have autism recently (and have to live with it) and diagnosed with Asperger's by a lousy Johns Hopkins Resident 2017 (didn't explain it or tell me how to get help and I've told everyone since then about diagnosis and they totally ignored me).
And this therapist was impossible! She said "Did you see where you could have made a mistake complaining about your last dr?". I complained because last dr almost killed me several times, lied about ALL meds, constantly ignored me and now banned from all practices in MD & DE! No, I did the right thing complaining! No one's going to use me anymore! I was treated like dirt at this practice last 8 years and they were all incompetent and had NO compassion and I ended up in hospitals multiple times getting shock treatment!
Am I crazy about what I'm saying?? Please tell me I'm sane! I need someone who understands! I've been crying sporadically. It's all over for me. I never had a chance! I want peace and I don't want to wake up anymore.

 

[Rodafina]

Was this your first time speaking with this therapist?

Sometimes the first appointment is very tough and even more so when meeting a therapist online. It may be worth it to give this therapist a chance - it takes time for the therapeutic relationship to develop and it sounds like you could really use someone to talk to about your lifetime of pain and hardship.

 

[Alexej]

Sorry you had a bad meeting with this therapist.

I agree with @Rodafina that the first meeting can be tough - especially if it is online.
Personally, I prefer to meet people face to face and then perhaps go online.

Getting shock treatment is tough

 

[Timelord]

Oh boy. The therapist is trying to get you to self analyse. That's what I get from that - and that won't help you at all! It's true that the first appointment with a new therapist can be a tough one, but if the second appointment goes the same way I don't think this therapist can help you. If you get the second appointment that is.

If you are in the US you are a victim of one of the worst mental health systems in the world. And it's only going to get even worse still under the second Trump administration. Shock treatment is banned where I live (in Australia), after a controversy in the late 1970's.

 

[Tony Ramirez]

Sorry I understand. That was the number one reason why I requested a male therapist who I talk to online. I am so glad I have him. I will never want a female therapist. I only had one great one during the pandemic 2020-2021 who I trusted with my life. After the last one ruined my conference in women, and it went downhill with them since. My therapist went through crap with women too.

 

[Shevek]

Thanks for posting. It helps me give up on a similar situation that didn't get as serious. A lot of medical people cannot conceive of their institutions ever doing harm, even though the Hipocratic Oath is rarely followed now.