@DK's_Ghost
The quality of mental health care for women really annoy me. No one thought until 30 years ago that women could be autistic too. But the descriptions online, on many of the sites offering assessment, are still based of the male model with no distinction given to variation in girls. I risk a tangent so I will just let that stand on its own.
When looking at my own behaviors, one of the most difficult things for me to understand, is how important "self control" is? I am having a difficult time trying to phrase my question succinctly.
For example: SusanLR said her assessor scattered pencils and asked if it "bothered" her. This question alone gives me heightened anxiety. When I am shopping, eating in a restaurant or in a doctors office (in short, in public) I have a string urge to straighten advertisment racks, menu stacks and shelves that have been disturbed. But, unless I happen to have a block of relaxed, free time, I can ignore this urge pretty easily. The tables in the doctors office are always neater when I leave, but store shelves I can ignore.
I was going to say "at home I don't need this same level of order" but I realized that rectangles are the issue and I don't have many of those at home. But if I play cards, I always neaten them and line them up.
Obviously, because I can ignore the urge, this straightening behavior is not disruptive and not OCD.
But just asking "does this bother you" would get an affirmative from me, yet, probably isn't relevant.
The quality of mental health care for women really annoy me. No one thought until 30 years ago that women could be autistic too. But the descriptions online, on many of the sites offering assessment, are still based of the male model with no distinction given to variation in girls. I risk a tangent so I will just let that stand on its own.
When looking at my own behaviors, one of the most difficult things for me to understand, is how important "self control" is? I am having a difficult time trying to phrase my question succinctly.
For example: SusanLR said her assessor scattered pencils and asked if it "bothered" her. This question alone gives me heightened anxiety. When I am shopping, eating in a restaurant or in a doctors office (in short, in public) I have a string urge to straighten advertisment racks, menu stacks and shelves that have been disturbed. But, unless I happen to have a block of relaxed, free time, I can ignore this urge pretty easily. The tables in the doctors office are always neater when I leave, but store shelves I can ignore.
I was going to say "at home I don't need this same level of order" but I realized that rectangles are the issue and I don't have many of those at home. But if I play cards, I always neaten them and line them up.
Obviously, because I can ignore the urge, this straightening behavior is not disruptive and not OCD.
But just asking "does this bother you" would get an affirmative from me, yet, probably isn't relevant.
