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I don't want to have Aspergers

I probably go between hating that I'm an aspie and loving it every few hours, haha... I guess everyone has things they love and hate about themselves, aspie or not. You gotta make of it what you need to to get by and be happy in life.
 
Also just to relate to your feelings a little, sometimes it makes me feel really sad to know I'm an aspie. Not because I think there's anything wrong with it, but more so because it explains some of the mysteries in my life that I used to chalk up to being "special" or "talented" or "intuitive" or "clairvoyant" etc. I know I can still be considered all of those things, but there was a special magic to being different before. Or maybe I just convinced myself there was so I wouldn't feel so out of place... But nowadays I feel a little like that magic is lost because I have this hard and fast explanation that takes all the fun out of certain things that used to be so fascinatingly strange... I don't know.
 
I wish I had figured this out sooner. My mom was too busy doing her own thing to recognize something was off with me as a kid. It's funny, too, because growing up, I always suspected I was "special", but no one ever thought to test me for being on the spectrum. Maybe it wasn't common to diagnose AS in the 80's? In the end, I wish I didn't have it, because it means I probably can't improve my EQ. Knowing does give me a better idea of what I can and can't do and allows me the opportunity to just accept my weaknesses and hone my strengths.
 
Just as I don't want a terrible birthmark, a deformed limb, or a low IQ, I don't want to be an Aspie. I see NO advantage to it. It would be so very nice to go through a day without worrying about appearing "different"--make that handicapped. It must be wonderful to be free of all flaws o_O.
 
Aspieistj said:
Just as I don't want a terrible birthmark, a deformed limb, or a low IQ, I don't want to be an Aspie. I see NO advantage to it. It would be so very nice to go through a day without worrying about appearing "different"--make that handicapped. It must be wonderful to be free of all flaws o_O.
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Nobody is free of flaws, how normal or special a person might be. Everybody has their own flaws or problems, some normal people more as some aspies, it's what you make of it.
Sure I would pick being normal, sounds a lot easier as well, but "normal" people have their own problems and issues (it would suck if I would know and see how everybody feels and act accordingly, sounds like a second job...)
 
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