I was thinking it was something great that came from ASD - ability to concentrate vary hard to crack problems noone else could.
But then it has been pointed out how this ability has also held me back in life. I can get fixated on a project and life just passes me by.
But often this ability seems essential to me. E.g. at the moment I seem to be stuck hyperfocsing on 3 things at the same time - getting legal issues sorted, proving local mental health and social services teams utterly screwing me over, while I'm also trying hard to understand what is different about me.
So right now today, if I wasn't hyperfocusing I would never be able to progress on those three serious issues I need to get resolved. But my brain is just totally taken over by these three things so I struggle to do anything else.
I've read a few older posts where other people also seem to be stuck on this - hyperfocusing can seriously seem to hold a person back yet also seems essential for us just to survive.
Luckily, for me, my "special interests", for the most part, will last for several weeks to a few months, then I will move onto something else. Granted I have had some that lasted for years,...and a few for what seems a lifetime. I have had a few special interests that I would describe as "go big or go home",...expensive,...stressfully expensive,...building a race car, creating a custom 200 gallon wall aquarium, installing a home solar energy system and changing to electric cars (which now saves me thousands per year). When I was younger, and at the university,...I was horribly unfocused,...every topic was interesting, yet I couldn't focus upon any of them. It was like I had 3, 4, 5 voices in my head, all demanding the attention, talking over each other,...for a while there, I would just lie in bed, frustrated, do anything but what I was supposed to do. Grades suffered and I just had to put it aside for a while and let my brain "cool off". I have learned the hard way to just focus upon one thing at a time,...and when I do,...it is down to the molecular level,...serious deep dives. However, in doing this, I will exhaust the available knowledge on the topic in a short amount of time,...get frustrated with the lack of information,...and move onto the next topic. One may say, I am extremely "knowledge hungry". I wish, some day, to plug my brain into an A.I. computer and interface with the world wide web,...and download the knowledge of the world.
However, as you say, this ability to focus and concentrate has also led to a level of professional expertise in neonatal respiratory care and neonatal respiratory physiology that, frankly, I've never met my equal,...not anyone with advanced degrees, not anyone a professional conferences, not anyone who has written text books on the subject,...and yes, I have met and spoke with several people like this in my search for more knowledge. Most of the time, I feel like I am speaking Mandarin Chinese to my physicians who, clearly are responsible for lives, clearly are decision makers, and clearly have some knowledge on the topic, but when I open my mouth to express my concerns,...their eyes glaze over like they don't understand. It is very frustrating to watch a team of intelligent, caring neonatologists and pulmonologists fumble around with the life an infant,...for several months in some cases,...only to come up with the conclusion that I came up with in a few seconds,...but never seeming to have any understanding or doing anything to address my concerns. Months later, after they finally discover what I already knew, you feel like a father looking down at a child, dropping my glasses on the tip of my nose, and saying,..."
What did you learn today?" But,...they never learn. It's like,..."
Why am I here?" I've come so close to throwing up my hands and just walking away from my job,...I try not to be apathetic at this point,...it is very difficult some days.