I understand you not wanting to buy drugs, I don't blame you.I am VERY reluctant to break laws. I’m not saying I never do, but buying drugs on the street is not something I’m ever going to do.
I learned about Kratom as a way to wean off opioids. But there is an unknown side effect of using it: it substantially raises tolerance to all opioids. So I went from feeling “great” on one pill to needing 10 pills. Eventually, I was using my whole month’s prescription in a few days. Then spending 3 weeks in withdrawals. I did that for two years. It wasn’t fun anymore.
I pulled the trigger and cancelled my appointment with my Dr. It was necessary, but it might be the hardest thing I have ever done. Opioids are the Devil, and my Dr is a licensed drug dealer. I changed Dr’s last month. He gave me a prescription for Percocet. I haven’t touched it in 6 weeks.
Someone here mentioned seeing the end from the beginning. I saw the end, dozens of times. I just keep telling myself this: “You know that there’s only pain in that bottle. Are you willing to suffer through hell again so that you can live in Heaven for a day?”
The answer finally became “No”. I learned (after years of knowing but not learning), that there’s only one way to handle it. The only winning move is to never play.
I need to do it with alcohol, but it keeps working well enough that I can’t teach myself what I already know.
I didn't know kratom raised opioid tolerance, do you have any source for that info so I can read up on it more?
I'm sorry it made you need more pills.
Kratom doesn't suit me, it scares me, but going cold turkey does as well, as I read some horror stories, I'm glad I got this far tapering down, and I can't wait to need none.
Respect you for getting off painkillers.