RavenSly
Well-Known Member
Hi, I'm yet another person with the Aspergers Condition. I've had it all my life, although I was only officially diagnosed with it when I was in 5th Grade. Before that I just thought I was a delinquent with no manners, anger issues, and a host of other problems. To be honest, I've never fully come to terms with the label, and try as I might, to this day it is a source of deep personal shame for me. I remember actually questioning and asking my father if I was even human, as there were times I felt like I didn't belong anywhere.
I know a few other people with the condition, and I'm now familiar with it enough that I can recognize it in someone just by hearing them speak a single sentence. Fortunately for me, it isn't as pronounced as it is with many people who have it [I had a close friend who didn't realize it until I told her, saying that I appeared mostly normal]. This is because I also have Clinical Depression, and I theorize that the stimulant effects of the Aspergers and the depressive effects of the Depression sort of cancel each other out, as well as the fact that from the time I started school, I've been in Psychological Therapy to help me deal with my mental problems, these two things allowing me to regain some sense of normalcy. I still have problems, and have to regularly take medication, but for the most part, I can function normally in society, and am fully capable of taking care of myself [although for the moment, I don't].
Again, I'd like to stress that I do not feel comfortable being here, at least not yet. That's part of the reason I'm here, to come to terms with it, accept it, and get over this deep shame I've always felt because of it. I'd also just like a place to discuss things with people who know where I'm coming from, as even on the internet, I often come across as odd and awkward [even on the internet, I can usually tell when I'm dealing with someone who has the condition].
I know a few other people with the condition, and I'm now familiar with it enough that I can recognize it in someone just by hearing them speak a single sentence. Fortunately for me, it isn't as pronounced as it is with many people who have it [I had a close friend who didn't realize it until I told her, saying that I appeared mostly normal]. This is because I also have Clinical Depression, and I theorize that the stimulant effects of the Aspergers and the depressive effects of the Depression sort of cancel each other out, as well as the fact that from the time I started school, I've been in Psychological Therapy to help me deal with my mental problems, these two things allowing me to regain some sense of normalcy. I still have problems, and have to regularly take medication, but for the most part, I can function normally in society, and am fully capable of taking care of myself [although for the moment, I don't].
Again, I'd like to stress that I do not feel comfortable being here, at least not yet. That's part of the reason I'm here, to come to terms with it, accept it, and get over this deep shame I've always felt because of it. I'd also just like a place to discuss things with people who know where I'm coming from, as even on the internet, I often come across as odd and awkward [even on the internet, I can usually tell when I'm dealing with someone who has the condition].
