Hello...kwanyin joining today! I am a 53 year old mother of two adult children. Not only do I have AS, but so do both of my children. Things have not been easy for any of us for the past 27 years. My daughter, 27, was misdiagnosed in kindergarten as having Selective Mutism and therefore spent all her 13 years of primary/hs with the treatment that she refused to speak in the school situation. My son spoke, but had/has the same Aspergers' syndrome symptoms as I do...which are different than my daughter's. She has the social symptoms, such as inappropriate responses, etc. My son and I have more the symptoms that take shape in relationships.
I have been married 2 times. Each of these marriages ending because of my not being able to express my emotions...as if I didn't actually FEEL them in the first place. I have been accused by many as being "indifferent...selfish and self-centered....cold...lacking empathy"...among many other things. Love relationships are the most difficult for me. Friendships actually are quite easy and my son is the same way. My biggest issues are that deep down inside I would like to be successful at a love relationship in my life, without the ultimate abuse that I make my partner suffer because I can't "be what they think is normal"...and to be able to deal with the guilt of my children possibly going through the same things in their life.
I am so happy I found a place where I can speak and get comradeship. Thank you!
I have been married 2 times. Each of these marriages ending because of my not being able to express my emotions...as if I didn't actually FEEL them in the first place. I have been accused by many as being "indifferent...selfish and self-centered....cold...lacking empathy"...among many other things. Love relationships are the most difficult for me. Friendships actually are quite easy and my son is the same way. My biggest issues are that deep down inside I would like to be successful at a love relationship in my life, without the ultimate abuse that I make my partner suffer because I can't "be what they think is normal"...and to be able to deal with the guilt of my children possibly going through the same things in their life.
I am so happy I found a place where I can speak and get comradeship. Thank you!
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