Feeling Lost

[KevinMao133]

For the last week or so, I’m feeling kind of lost

Between masking to caring too much about what others think of me, I am once again back at square one

To be fair, I have always been sensitive. It has made me, it’s the reason why I’m creative

That said, being sensitive is the reason why I got into multiple imaginary argument with myself the last couple of days

I’m still hard on myself and worrying about things I have no business worrying about

I also try to rationalize everything, even though I know shouldn’t. Internalized ableism is still a thing and something I experience

 

[blue_bird]

I'm very sensitive myself. It's both my greatest strength and greatest weakness.

 

[Xinyta]

For the last week or so, I’m feeling kind of lost

Between masking to caring too much about what others think of me, I am once again back at square one

To be fair, I have always been sensitive. It has made me, it’s the reason why I’m creative

That said, being sensitive is the reason why I got into multiple imaginary argument with myself the last couple of days

I’m still hard on myself and worrying about things I have no business worrying about

I also try to rationalize everything, even though I know shouldn’t. Internalized ableism is still a thing and something I experience

Emotions are gift of the spirit and a plague on the mind.

It is healthy to be sensitive to things. But it's another thing to let those sensitivities rule everything you do and say. There is a fine balance that is hard to achieve. I still struggle to maintain it myself. But the more sure we are of ourselves, the more balanced our full self will be.

When uncertainty has stricken the heart, and bled it dry of emotions. That is when we lose ourselves. Our sense of self and self-worth cannot thrive. Only ruled by the lies told to ourselves out of bitterness and fear of everything around us.

Do not feed the lies. Do not feed the monster that hides. Or you will never be free. Forever bound by the darkness you reside in.