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Exposure Anxiety and Dissociation

royinpink

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I came across this video from Donna Williams called "Autism and Dissociation," and it is really eye-opening about a lot of the anxieties that myself and my undiagnosed friends have experienced.

For me, I relate to the 'the more I want to do something, the more I avoid or divert attention from or retaliate against doing it.'

For my former roommate, she experiences the dissociative states where her body seems to be moving outside of her control, like a movie, as well as daydreaming and fantasy.

For my ex (of sorts), I always have to hedge around any social or emotional issues and give him lots of space and time, or else face the same 'avoidance, distractions, or retaliation'...and the retaliation can get ugly.

For my students, I definitely see them taking on roles and accents, sometimes shifting between fantasy and reality in disturbing ways (e.g. going seamlessly from talking about a cartoon to talking about personal experience of being stalked and harrassed--as if it were part of the cartoon--and then back into fantasy).

It's a bit of a long video, but it really goes into lots of detail and separates out comorbids (PTSD, OCD, etc.) and possible causes (both 'nature and nurture') for different symptoms/behaviors, as well as separating these anxiety coping mechanisms from meltdowns and panic attacks.


I think it's valuable just as information, but please feel free to share what parts you yourself relate to or find interesting/problematic/insightful.
 
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I came across this video from Donna Williams called "Autism and Dissociation," and it is really eye-opening about a lot of the anxieties that myself and my undiagnosed friends have experienced.

For me, I relate to the 'the more I want to do something, the more I avoid or divert attention from or retaliate against doing it.'

For my former roommate, she experiences the dissociative states where her body seems to be moving outside of her control, like a movie, as well as daydreaming and fantasy.

For my ex (of sorts), I always have to hedge around any social or emotional issues and give him lots of space and time, or else face the same 'avoidance, distractions, or retaliation'...and the retaliation can get ugly.

For my students, I definitely see them taking on roles and accents, sometimes shifting between fantasy and reality in disturbing ways (e.g. going seamlessly from talking about a cartoon to talking about personal experience of being stalked and harrassed--as if it were part of the cartoon--and then back into fantasy).

It's a bit of a long video, but it really goes into lots of detail and separates out comorbids (PTSD, OCD, etc.) and possible causes (both 'nature and nurture') for different symptoms/behaviors, as well as separating these anxiety coping mechanisms from meltdowns and panic attacks.


I think it's valuable just as information, but please feel free to share what parts you yourself relate to or find interesting/problematic/insightful.
RIP
Excellent video thanks.
I strongly related to -
  • De-personalisation
  • De-realisation
  • Inability to forget
 
RIP
Excellent video thanks.
I strongly related to -
  • De-personalisation
  • De-realisation
  • Inability to forget
Yeah, I relate to depersonalization and inability to forget as well (but less so derealization). Why do you say RIP? Donna Williams is still alive, unless I'm missing something...
 
I have read several books by Donna Williams and
continue to be amazed that she survived childhood.
Yeah, I relate to depersonalization and inability to forget as well (but less so derealization). Why do you say RIP? Donna Williams is still alive, unless I'm missing something...

I think he was abbreviating royinpink
 
Yeah, I relate to depersonalization and inability to forget as well (but less so derealization). Why do you say RIP? Donna Williams is still alive, unless I'm missing something...
Sorry, but I have a tendency to make everything into an acronym - Roy In Pink (RIP). Sorry!
 
I have read several books by Donna Williams and
continue to be amazed that she survived childhood.


I think he was abbreviating royinpink
Oh god, that is hilarious, maybe I should change my username.

ETA: I'm reading Somebody Somewhere right now (because Nobody Nowhere wasn't available on Kindle). A lot of moments that hit home in an eerie, sad way. I've read snippets of the first book and yeah...agreed.
 
I played section at 15 through 17 minutes
several times. And took particular notice
any time she said Schizoid.

Also, it gives me a better idea of
of PTSD/memory/flashback/'meltdown.'
That helps me to understand people
who aren't me.
 
Watched a bit of her, had a really difficult time with her style of speaking and rapid-fire delivery. Had to keep pausing the vid and taking lots of deep breaths as the way she speaks makes me terribly anxious.
Went to her website and read her biography and as Tree mentioned, surprised that she survived her childhood.
When she writes about leading a semi-feral childhood I can certainly sympathize, mine was not as difficult as hers but close enough to make me disassociate with some of the things she writes and speaks about.
 
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