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Sounds like you are determined to beat those cravings.
Can you say more about what's hard about keeping distance from your family? I know they have been very abusive, and you had gained significant independence from them.
I suppose I could take some Benadryl to knock myself out so I get some rest before work tomorrow, though resorting to drugs is not the greatest idea in the world.
I feel an itch that beer can scratch. I had no idea I was actually this addicted.
Hope you got some sleep. But as you know, it's worth going through this difficult stage to get through with the addiction and get your freedom to choose how you live back.
I think then you will feel a lot more able to tackle the underlying stuff you are up against. You need a plan that can't be undermined. Probably you need to work on getting or reviving links with any allies and friends.
Maybe take up a new interest, volunteer, join a cause and do stuff instead of playing games and staying alone and vulnerable. I know Covid has made all that more difficult. But as you can sometimes see on this forum, many of us might be undermined and manipulated by family members or others if we did not find some way to take active steps to have other support and lives they cannot damage.
Yes, it'll take a while for that to stop happening. Your body doesn't get that, but your mind does. Short term, it will be tough; exercise is your friend, as you have said. Try putting on some music and dancing? Tidying your cupboards? Painting a wall? Making a model from a kit? Phone a friend? Make a meal?
Activity is best. And that's true anyway, as drugs and alcohol don't sit well alongside meaningful or focussed activities. Distract yourself, and occupy yourself. It will be great to be more fit.
I am incredibly cranky right now. And irritable. And angry. I am feeling everything I have tried to avoid feeling. And I am very pissed off right now.