I get really nervous and anxious about them. I want it to be as quick and as painless as possible, like if I use a cash machine. It's memorising an order to repeat back, forming the words to say, dealing with where I look and talking to someone I don't know and hearing them over a noisy background - they usually mumble too which really doesn't help. The whole thing makes me think 'sod this, I might as well stay in bed'.
Perfect example of a financial transaction I hate, I went to the cinema with my siblings and friends last night to watch 'Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them' (good film by the way). I bought myself a regular Coca-Cola and a small popcorn. Surviving the regular wave of anxiety that comes with this situation I got my drink but then realised the guy, obviously new, forgot my popcorn resulting in a whole ho-ha with me having to enter in my card details three times and sign a receipt. I'm not expecting to do this so as a result I'm on the edge and annoyed as I leave with my things I purchased to enjoy the film.
I'm usually okay in most social situations but this is an anathema for me which is strange because it's the most structured sort of situation but having read back the reasons why I find it hard it's no wonder I order most things off Amazon. The hardest part of that is maybe receiving packages off the postman, pretending to smile and that the reason I'm at home during the day is because I work night shifts and is not because I'm dying inside from the existential dread that comes with being an apparent adult.
If God is planning a personalised hell for the atrocities I've committed in my life he need only put me in a busy marketplace with a list of things I need to buy to satisfy my demonic overlords to stop the physical beatings from happening.
Perfect example of a financial transaction I hate, I went to the cinema with my siblings and friends last night to watch 'Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them' (good film by the way). I bought myself a regular Coca-Cola and a small popcorn. Surviving the regular wave of anxiety that comes with this situation I got my drink but then realised the guy, obviously new, forgot my popcorn resulting in a whole ho-ha with me having to enter in my card details three times and sign a receipt. I'm not expecting to do this so as a result I'm on the edge and annoyed as I leave with my things I purchased to enjoy the film.
I'm usually okay in most social situations but this is an anathema for me which is strange because it's the most structured sort of situation but having read back the reasons why I find it hard it's no wonder I order most things off Amazon. The hardest part of that is maybe receiving packages off the postman, pretending to smile and that the reason I'm at home during the day is because I work night shifts and is not because I'm dying inside from the existential dread that comes with being an apparent adult.
If God is planning a personalised hell for the atrocities I've committed in my life he need only put me in a busy marketplace with a list of things I need to buy to satisfy my demonic overlords to stop the physical beatings from happening.
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