Cogs Of My Cranium
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Before I begin I will say that I am located in the UK. So some of this may or may not be the situation in other countries. Two years ago I had cbt (cognitive behavioural therapy) on the phone counselling. Personally cbt didn't work for me so I was then put on a 6 week face to face counselling. Although there were no ultimate answers to my issues in counselling I do feel it helped to clear my chaotic mind by telling someone my streams of consciousness etc.
In recent times a lot of things have piled on top of me and my family which has come down on top of my similar state of two years ago. So I decided to reach out to my GP doctor who referred me to a counsellor company.
One week later I was phoned by this company to basically do a 45 min assessment of the correct form of treatment for me. This was all done over the phone as I walked around the block multiple times due to lack of privacy at home. At the end of this conversation She agreed that I should be booked in for face to face counselling and that I would be put on a waiting list that is 4 months long.
One of the questions of this questionnaire was 'do you have suicidal/dark thoughts?' I said yes and marked it as a 4/5 in terms of intensity. Then came the question of 'have you made any plans to kill yourself?' This to me is kind of a bizarre question to me but they have to ask this. If I'd have said yes the 4 month wait would be of course cut dramatically shorter. As I've said no I am in a dark limbo of 4 months.
I mean just because I didn't say I'm planning on hanging myself at 12noon on Thursday I now receive no help. I return to the silence, which is something which has sparked me writing this. If I'm making genuine plans why would I tell anyone about them? I understand why this wait is the case but I can't help but think of the surreal bizarreness of it all. Sorry for long post
In recent times a lot of things have piled on top of me and my family which has come down on top of my similar state of two years ago. So I decided to reach out to my GP doctor who referred me to a counsellor company.
One week later I was phoned by this company to basically do a 45 min assessment of the correct form of treatment for me. This was all done over the phone as I walked around the block multiple times due to lack of privacy at home. At the end of this conversation She agreed that I should be booked in for face to face counselling and that I would be put on a waiting list that is 4 months long.
One of the questions of this questionnaire was 'do you have suicidal/dark thoughts?' I said yes and marked it as a 4/5 in terms of intensity. Then came the question of 'have you made any plans to kill yourself?' This to me is kind of a bizarre question to me but they have to ask this. If I'd have said yes the 4 month wait would be of course cut dramatically shorter. As I've said no I am in a dark limbo of 4 months.
I mean just because I didn't say I'm planning on hanging myself at 12noon on Thursday I now receive no help. I return to the silence, which is something which has sparked me writing this. If I'm making genuine plans why would I tell anyone about them? I understand why this wait is the case but I can't help but think of the surreal bizarreness of it all. Sorry for long post
