At 3 years old, I was tearing apart the old washer and dryer in grandma's basement. Looking around to see how everything else worked down there. Would tear apart old radios, typewriters, whatever. I'd crawl under cars to see how they worked, and try to figure out the dash lights of parked cars. Fascinated by the Mackinac Bridge since well before school. Would tear apart all my toys, but put them back together, often modified them. Couldn't get me lost on the back roads. I could read before school, but even in first grade was in speech therapy. My mind doesn't comprehend how many people can't read blueprints. To me they are more natural than written words, and I've drawn and read them since before school. I'd learn everything about, or try to collect everything of a type. My mom called it my phases. Learning everything about trains, bridges, car parts, house parts, collecting spice cans, locks and keys.... When I was 12 I had these detailed plans for a 2WD bicycle which I had no idea what to do with. Turned out later on something very similar was made by Spicer Cycles.
It's really hard telling what would have happened, if I'd not been born with a defect and didn't get so small and singled out for bullying. Had I been normal size I don't know, most likely the people still would have still gotten old. At recess I would find things of my own to do, sit under trees, examine construction of the playground equipment, ride the swing and compare my movements with the set lifting out of the ground. I'd try to play with others, but I was always a follower doing what they wanted, and it just didn't feel right running around playing pointless games. It was just something to pass time. Most of the time I'd just go sit at the front of the line, ready to come in, for most of the recess period. I really liked indoor recess, but the only time they let us do that was when the weather was unusually bitter cold, or raining. I couldn't do physically competitive games well, nor did I like them. I came home crying when they wanted to put me in a garbage bag for some stupid hopping game.
Always had digestive problems, but that's confirmed since birth. Kinda one of those chicken-or-the-egg things, did the autism come from the malnutrition and backup of poisons that stunted my growth? One may never know, and at least not in this thread.
Later on as I started to grow, I'd listen to the same few tapes every day. Walk up town and eat the same thing every day. I always ate one thing at a time, and preferred it not to touch. I'd shim my plate up so stuff would drain away from other stuff. Wear the same thing every day (I did buy 3 of the same outfit) and wore my jean jacket all day every single day. When I had to wear my winter coat, I'd put the jean jacket under it. Still wear multiple coats in layers as I freeze easily.
I always had the senses that were overactive in every way. Could hear a car literally a mile down the road, but couldn't hear a thing in background noise. Clothes tags, food smells, etc. had to go. I never could see the board at school, didn't know anybody could. I always understood that binoculars were for seeing far away things, as my dad used them everyday. Fluorescent lights would burn my eyes especially off white paper.
But (even today) it's like once I find something that works, I'm often terrified to stray from it because I think nothing else might ever work as good. When really all I do is wear it out and keep falling farther and farther into the past. I still do that with things, quite often actually. Granted my stuff works great for me, is cheap, and makes me happy, but meanwhile I realize I'm missing out on some things and the world is passing me by.
About being a follower, is pretty much what I am today, but not exactly. More like a perfector. I don't come up with totally new concepts so well, but once they're on the table, I can make them be the best they can possibly be. I'm basically another Henry Ford, Leo Fender, or Bill Gates. Without the marketing skills of course.