Hi,
I'll start with just a little bit of background so you can understand where the question is coming from.
I've had a really tough year which has directly impacted my ability to focus and perform at work. The whole thing made me ask the question why I'm struggling so much, which has led to my diagnosis in August that I'm an aspie.
About the same time as my diagnosis, I had a performance review at work. It was aweful, I've basically been given 6 months to prove I should be in the job. 90% of the feedback was regarding how I interact with people. Apparently clients, colleagues and sub-contractors have all complained. I've never had a bad performance review before, I had expected it to not be great, but this feedback really surprised me.
In retrospect I've realised that when I took on this job, it was a promotion. And this is really the first time my job description has included client management, and such a great emphasis on sub-contractor management. So in light of my diagnosis, having such a tough year probably compounded a problem I could very well have had anyway.
With a lot of effort my performance has greatly improved. I have received good feedback from the people I work with. But I don't know that I'll ever be able to interact on a level that my bosses will be happy with. And even if I can, do I want to always have to work so hard to make my bosses happy??
So I'm trying to decide if I should stick it out and see how my next performance review goes, or if I should just accept that the job I've trained and worked so hard to get into, is just not the right place for me.
I was wondering if anyone has experieced similar or has any advice they could offer on what I should do next?
I'll start with just a little bit of background so you can understand where the question is coming from.
I've had a really tough year which has directly impacted my ability to focus and perform at work. The whole thing made me ask the question why I'm struggling so much, which has led to my diagnosis in August that I'm an aspie.
About the same time as my diagnosis, I had a performance review at work. It was aweful, I've basically been given 6 months to prove I should be in the job. 90% of the feedback was regarding how I interact with people. Apparently clients, colleagues and sub-contractors have all complained. I've never had a bad performance review before, I had expected it to not be great, but this feedback really surprised me.
In retrospect I've realised that when I took on this job, it was a promotion. And this is really the first time my job description has included client management, and such a great emphasis on sub-contractor management. So in light of my diagnosis, having such a tough year probably compounded a problem I could very well have had anyway.
With a lot of effort my performance has greatly improved. I have received good feedback from the people I work with. But I don't know that I'll ever be able to interact on a level that my bosses will be happy with. And even if I can, do I want to always have to work so hard to make my bosses happy??
So I'm trying to decide if I should stick it out and see how my next performance review goes, or if I should just accept that the job I've trained and worked so hard to get into, is just not the right place for me.
I was wondering if anyone has experieced similar or has any advice they could offer on what I should do next?