Brain healing from God

[Rachie]

Hi everyone, I wrote about about the issues I was having with my sensory and autism in my brain in an earlier thread in this forum which I posted and I just wanted to update but cannot in that thread as it is not for discussions of religion. I thought I would start a new thread and update on the situation and the healing I received for it.

https://www.autismforums.com/threads/managing-repetition-in-your-daily-life.50267/

For several years now I have been struggling with my brain and hearing my own thoughts in my head and hearing what other people have said to me being played back in a repetitive echo in my brain. This appeared to be due to my sensory condition and autism. I have quite significant repetition in the brain with autism. It has appeared in my head MRI scan. It got quite bad and it was like different parts of my brain the signals were faulty. My head got quite unusable really and I got healing for it.

I am thankful for it. It is not perfect but it is much improved and continues to be a work in progress.
The work to repair it lasted for about 4 weeks. Once a week I would sit at home and it felt like my brain would start lightly spinning and it like it was being worked on. One intervention came at Church last week. It just got cold around me-the breath of wind The Holy Ghost and my brain was being worked on as I sat and the cross interchanging of my thoughts just ceased and it is so much better.

I am so grateful. I was praying for it a while. I receive the Eucharist and blood of Christ at Church and I have been going regularly for a while now.

I still have autism but my head is now more usable.

I am so lucky, a new brain pretty much, been given a bit of upgrade in the software as well.

Thanks be to God.

 

[lunarious]

Don't broadcast you have voices in your head. Having voices in your head is a mental dys-function.

I myself have almost never heard voices. The doctor Forced me to yell: "I do not hear voices! I hear sounds!"

 

[Alexej]

Don't broadcast you have voices in your head. Having voices in your head is a mental dys-function.

I myself have almost never heard voices. The doctor Forced me to yell: "I do not hear voices! I hear sounds!"

Im not sure I would agree with the Doctor.
My son has schizophrenia and hearing voices is part of that story.

 

[lunarious]

As a matter of fact. I've been wondering if thoughts told me everybody hears voices more or less. For any reason as technology.

I told them in the past i will destroy you if I find out you mentalize, given that they are giving me bad treatment without providing me evidence. Keeping me crazy and Forcing me to Develop anxiety. (edit) through illusions.

I told them with patient kindness, i'll cooperate if you are Christian or Muslim.

Me or anyone. Being kind is not a question.

 

[Rachie]

Don't broadcast you have voices in your head. Having voices in your head is a mental dys-function.

I myself have almost never heard voices. The doctor Forced me to yell: "I do not hear voices! I hear sounds!"

I never had voices in my head unknown to me. It was my thoughts I was hearing what I had said or written myself or what others had said being played back on an echo so repetitively in my brain. My last brain scan of my head showed likely potential issues with repetition which is a feature of Autism for some people.
What happened is that I was having say an autistic thought and a thought from my everyday life and me generally and they were like meeting in my brain together and cross wiring. It was a bit of a mess and like they would speak back to each other.

It was just messy and now it is perfect thanks be to God.

 

[lunarious]

God is Merciful ... but i will not argue with you on if his name is Allah or Deus or God.

 

[Neonatal RRT]

The voice I hear in my head is better described as "the inner monologue" or "the narrator". When I am thinking or reading, it's in actual words.

I think this is part of my communication and auditory processing issues during a conversation. If someone is speaking to me, I cannot think at the same time because I think in a conversation language. If I am thinking, I don't process a word they said. If they pause, I need to think out a response, in words, then verbalize a response, and this takes a moment. It's those little delays that people sense and perhaps interpret as "odd".

I run into this frequently with my wife. My wife, once she gets "passionate" about what she is discussing with me, I just have to clear my thoughts IF I am going to hear a word she says. Unfortunately, in those moments, she can be a bit of a conversational bully that keeps hammering away before I can formulate a verbal response to anything. I just have to let her exhaust her thoughts, and then, later, respond.

Other times, if I am thinking about something, and my wife is telling me something, I won't remember a word she said. She gets frustrated with me sometimes because, "I've told you several times,..." and I will look at her with a blank stare because I honestly don't remember any of it.

 

[Kayla55]

Question: would you say you had bouts with echoaliation, if yes what were you repeating.
For me it was mostly when young and I didn't understand why people said something. So I'd repeat it, over

I've had brain fog and hallucinations due to overdose of milk-sugar. Do believe their is spiritual side and town I stayed in over lockdown may have history of previous epidemic where red roofs were not covered up. Perhaps there were spirits of deceased that was upsetting me, but I think prayer helped me to resolve this and allow G-d to handle what I didn't understand.

 

[Rachie]

Question: would you say you had bouts with echoaliation, if yes what were you repeating.
For me it was mostly when young and I didn't understand why people said something. So I'd repeat it, over

I've had brain fog and hallucinations due to overdose of milk-sugar. Do believe their is spiritual side and town I stayed in over lockdown may have history of previous epidemic where red roofs were not covered up. Perhaps there were spirits of deceased that was upsetting me, but I think prayer helped me to resolve this and allow G-d to handle what I didn't understand.

Sometimes I have experienced Echolalia, but my sensory and nature of my brain could take one word and repeat it at its height in my brain about 10-20 times over. The pathways were just all wrong and my conditions were cross communicating in the brain.

I would say keep on praying Kayla55 as you find it helpful and perhaps go and have a church blessing if you feel you may have been entangled with spirits as that should remove them if you have the faith. You can get this done at say a Catholic or Anglican church when people go up to receive the Eucharist/Holy Communion you just ask for a blessing instead and they will bless you may find it helpful that you have been cleaned.

My scan report highlighted in 2022 (but it got worse) this which may have added to this issue of repetition-

“There are a few periventricular and subcortical white matter signal abnormalities bilaterally which are nonspecific but more than expected for patient of this age”.

From research-

“Periventricular WMH volume was not associated with age but was associated with greater restricted repetitive behaviours.. Thus, findings demonstrate that periventricular WMH volume is elevated in ASD and associated with a higher degree of repetitive behaviors and restricted interests.”

Periventricular white matter abnormalities and restricted repetitive behavior in autism spectrum disorder - PMC

 

[vergil96]

I'm glad the repetitive thinking went away, whatever the reason. I'm glad that you have found prayer and attening Church helpful.

I'm still struggling with my repetitive thinking to a degree. I think mine isn't as pronounced as yours, but it's nevertheless exhausting. Things I experienced keep on playing on repeat in my head. For me bright light, loud sounds and other strong sensations seem to trigger it, but it's not always possible to avoid them.

 

[SusanLR]

I don't hear voices, but my internal dialogue is never quite unless I force myself to listen to what others are saying. Thankfully, I can turn it off long enough to do this.

If someone is speaking to me, I cannot think at the same time because I think in a conversation language. If I am thinking, I don't process a word they said. If they pause, I need to think out a response, in words, then verbalize a response, and this takes a moment. It's those little delays that people sense and perhaps interpret as "odd".

This is the same way my brain works. Exactly.
I think and read in actual words also. And if I am not really concentrating on thinking or reading something in particular, my mind still continues in an internal dialogue that rambles on about different things in my life or that I've heard others say.
This is why I can't multi-task and I need ambient music to get to sleep.

 

[Kayla55]

Sometimes I have experienced Echolalia, but my sensory and nature of my brain could take one word and repeat it at its height in my brain about 10-20 times over. The pathways were just all wrong and my conditions were cross communicating in the brain.

I would say keep on praying Kayla55 as you find it helpful and perhaps go and have a church blessing if you feel you may have been entangled with spirits as that should remove them if you have the faith. You can get this done at say a Catholic or Anglican church when people go up to receive the Eucharist/Holy Communion you just ask for a blessing instead and they will bless you may find it helpful that you have been cleaned.

My scan report highlighted in 2022 (but it got worse) this which may have added to this issue of repetition-

“There are a few periventricular and subcortical white matter signal abnormalities bilaterally which are nonspecific but more than expected for patient of this age”.

From research-

“Periventricular WMH volume was not associated with age but was associated with greater restricted repetitive behaviours.. Thus, findings demonstrate that periventricular WMH volume is elevated in ASD and associated with a higher degree of repetitive behaviors and restricted interests.”

Periventricular white matter abnormalities and restricted repetitive behavior in autism spectrum disorder - PMC

Interestingly the Torah does mention demonic spirits, when I left town it stopped. My mom's said no one is buried in the town anymore as it's full, the one night I thought ghosts left Cemetary which may just being lockdown paranoid. There were many graves at different sites around buildings, old. I got feeling town was built on Cemetary. But prayer helped me to sleep better, houses were very old, had attiques, old stone houses with red rooves. I didn't have mezuzah as we had moved, similarity in Catholics is that need a priest if it's really evil spirit, but prayer was ok for me. The Shema is a call to be completely faithful to the covenant, its focus is on daily life rather than in liturgy. When the Shema says to “love God with all your heart,” it means to use not only your “good traits” like kindness and compassion to do god's will, but also to use your more challenging traits to serve him

I'm still not utterly convinced that all nuts are kosher for Passover and whilst breakthrough with folate and I'm hopeful, I miss blessing of not being cursed. I'm tired
I'd like to remember when I was small and I won the swimming gala. I miss my dad in a way that he understands my son's (attention deficit) I wish my children to be happy as happy people are, laugh in sun, fall in love, not have complicated marriages or be asexual.
I'm tired of autism.

The French had more psychology perhaps not inventing asylum, different chemicals can alter the brain differently with schizophrenia/ADHD or autism. Those days of first asylum wasn't autism diagnosis. So whilst logically the medication I used was drug and created varied effects. Prayer incase there is more that is there.
Egyptians like Asians have different outlook on demons, perhaps more thorough experience with chemical imbalances and esoteric.
I don't like spiders or Adams family, and don't want quiji board to chat ghosts, really avoid this.

Perhaps pesticides are Asperger's diagnosis that was always why Asia was very advanced and so different, almost like a different species with autism. Perhaps some believe it's not a disability or health issues are not part of G-ds curse or where demon causes decay with illness and brain fog.

Whether technical brain answers variations to chemical imbalance or one believes it to be spiritual divide is perhaps choice already of good/evil and I'd like to forget all this and just be happy.

In end days it's choice between chip with Mark of beast or no food, and maybe it's why food is poisoned as Lunarious discussed in Quaran and end days technology will be there.
I don't know reason why varied pesticides create varied effects, more effects in some than others perhaps varied exposure. Some may give idea heard voices or saw demon, I can't say. But I've seeing enough evil in this world to know it's not for me.