William Weiler
Ad Astra
I was acutely aware of the dysfunction of the rules of society rules at 5yrs. I has selective mutism at the time as well and was internally focused. Was stood out was my parents faith in money and how it wasn't working, and that my Dad wasn't present. A bunch of freak horrific traumas followed and I almost died many times. So I have been on the path to enlightenment, for a better description. What can I do about my suffering, and the suffering I see all around me? After 40yrs I see many more things than I did before. I am still in pain for many things I have yet to accept. I have to be careful around others who follow these rules, and be careful of what I say in front of people who have not accepted these things. The end result is a powerlessness, that without this knowledge I gained, others can't act in any functional way. Most haven't even taken square one, the simple step of admitting the problem is within them. So I cannot do anything. I am one in person in world of 7B without political power, or the power of money. Yet even those individuals who see can not make any significant progress. Most people pursing a solution to their suffering with illusions, such as being a millionaire, being successful, or expecting the government to fix it. In the end I can only be present for someone else. Not even my words help that much, despite my pride.
It is a painful place to be. But I can be effective here, and not chase windmills and fail once again. I do fight, I give money to causes, and I volunteer in many places. I pick up trash in the community so kids grow up with more self-esteem. But the world will continue as it is, and things will come to pass. I will do what I can.
It is a painful place to be. But I can be effective here, and not chase windmills and fail once again. I do fight, I give money to causes, and I volunteer in many places. I pick up trash in the community so kids grow up with more self-esteem. But the world will continue as it is, and things will come to pass. I will do what I can.